wow
It has been 84 weeks since I have been here. 84 weeks. Thank you, livejournal.
No one livejournals anymore. But, that is not the reason for my writing. Not for people to read. However if you are reading...hello.
As i read my old posts I cannot help but feel pain. The fire in my heart was so evident, and I am amazed that the holy spirit can be present in such a way. However i have taken these past 84 weeks to truely and completely change who i am in every way possible. I feel like it all happened overnight. Really.
I am in awe of what to type at this point. The words used to flow so easily, but now I cannot type even a whole sentence without a pause. This, is what i feared would happen all along. I thought after a few trials and tribulations in middle school and early high school would teach me to stay strong through everything. Just then I proclaimed that I was invinceable with the Lord on my side.
But i forgot it all. And now im here. Daily I debate about which way im going to run that day. Away from God, or towards him? It shouldnt even be thought about. Not for even a second.
I am no longer who I used to be. Did you see it coming? I did not.
Though I do not want to change too much. I want this entry to have meaning other than my confusion and being lost in this world. So here it is, for the mass readers who want more. My lesson learned.
No matter where you have gotten yourself....no matter where you run to. When you turn around to look back, the cross is still there. Still standing tall. And still wide open for you. And no matter what you do, that cross is going nowhere. So stop running, and just turn back around. Drop every thing you are holding onto and be strong, because the Lord is the ONLY thing in this life that will NEVER change. EVER.
That is all I have to say for now. Maybe it will be another 84 weeks before im back. We will see.
No one livejournals anymore. But, that is not the reason for my writing. Not for people to read. However if you are reading...hello.
As i read my old posts I cannot help but feel pain. The fire in my heart was so evident, and I am amazed that the holy spirit can be present in such a way. However i have taken these past 84 weeks to truely and completely change who i am in every way possible. I feel like it all happened overnight. Really.
I am in awe of what to type at this point. The words used to flow so easily, but now I cannot type even a whole sentence without a pause. This, is what i feared would happen all along. I thought after a few trials and tribulations in middle school and early high school would teach me to stay strong through everything. Just then I proclaimed that I was invinceable with the Lord on my side.
But i forgot it all. And now im here. Daily I debate about which way im going to run that day. Away from God, or towards him? It shouldnt even be thought about. Not for even a second.
I am no longer who I used to be. Did you see it coming? I did not.
Though I do not want to change too much. I want this entry to have meaning other than my confusion and being lost in this world. So here it is, for the mass readers who want more. My lesson learned.
No matter where you have gotten yourself....no matter where you run to. When you turn around to look back, the cross is still there. Still standing tall. And still wide open for you. And no matter what you do, that cross is going nowhere. So stop running, and just turn back around. Drop every thing you are holding onto and be strong, because the Lord is the ONLY thing in this life that will NEVER change. EVER.
That is all I have to say for now. Maybe it will be another 84 weeks before im back. We will see.