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So yesterday was kinda freaky. Went to the mall with some friends, left my phone in the car by accident and almost had the police called on me because I hadn't been heard from in 6 hours. OMG what a fricken big deal. I sometimes wish my parents weren't such worry warts. I wish that they'd just let me go out and do my own thing and not have a fit if I don't talk to them every hour or so. I feel like they are putting so much pressure on me to be the good child and not do anything to upset them, so when I do they're like GRRR don't you ever do that again. Well I'm sorry but I'm going to be 20 in a month and I can't be your baby forever. I'm really sick of it, I am. GHA! I want to move out and be on my own so badly. Yes I said on my own cause I've never done it. Live with someone that I don't even know and maybe get a great set of friends that I can hang out with more often than I do now. I only hang out with my friends maybe, maybe, maybe once a month if that. I know I have steven but he's not the only person I like to hang around with.
I kinda feel lost right now because I don't know what to do even more than before. Jeremy, stevens brother, is saying all sorts of shit to steven about me right now that's not true. Like how I want to go see Steve, the guy I talk to from South Carolina, and how I'm gonna try to this summer. Ummmm lemme see, how the hell are my parents gonna let me get away with that one??? If they don't talk to me every hour they freak out like yesterday, and if they don't see me everyday the same thing happens. Then he said I said that I plan on breaking up with him in three weeks. Now I said that last week when I was really mad, not the three weeks thing, but the breaking up with him because it was really rough for a while. And now I'm still confused but I know I won't break up with him. I just think I need to hang out with friends again. I kind of miss Melissa and Eric. It used to be real fun to do stuff with them after we got out of the whole high school drama period (but everyone goes through that I think). The whole she said this, he said that. Really dumb. Anyways I miss hanging out with people, I need to have fun again.
Anyways I just think I want more freedom in my life. I hate telling people where I'm going, what I'm doing, what time I'll be back. That just gets old after 20 years of it. And my cerfew still stinks, but it's not like I ever go anywhere after that time anyways. Just rediculus.
Sorry about this post, but I'm just sick of things going on that I can't do anything about. Kinda scary if you think about it. Well I'm off to try to watch the movie "Raise your voice" that has Hillary Duff in it. I think it should be pretty good...well I'm off to test that theory...talk to everyone later!!!
I kinda feel lost right now because I don't know what to do even more than before. Jeremy, stevens brother, is saying all sorts of shit to steven about me right now that's not true. Like how I want to go see Steve, the guy I talk to from South Carolina, and how I'm gonna try to this summer. Ummmm lemme see, how the hell are my parents gonna let me get away with that one??? If they don't talk to me every hour they freak out like yesterday, and if they don't see me everyday the same thing happens. Then he said I said that I plan on breaking up with him in three weeks. Now I said that last week when I was really mad, not the three weeks thing, but the breaking up with him because it was really rough for a while. And now I'm still confused but I know I won't break up with him. I just think I need to hang out with friends again. I kind of miss Melissa and Eric. It used to be real fun to do stuff with them after we got out of the whole high school drama period (but everyone goes through that I think). The whole she said this, he said that. Really dumb. Anyways I miss hanging out with people, I need to have fun again.
Anyways I just think I want more freedom in my life. I hate telling people where I'm going, what I'm doing, what time I'll be back. That just gets old after 20 years of it. And my cerfew still stinks, but it's not like I ever go anywhere after that time anyways. Just rediculus.
Sorry about this post, but I'm just sick of things going on that I can't do anything about. Kinda scary if you think about it. Well I'm off to try to watch the movie "Raise your voice" that has Hillary Duff in it. I think it should be pretty good...well I'm off to test that theory...talk to everyone later!!!