Jan 18, 2011 01:21
...the people out there, why did I get stuck with the one who refuses consistency at all costs? Why is it I get the one who can't stand to be without a significant other but doesn't want to do what's necessary to maintain a relationship? What is it about me that attracts these people that love to drop me when the next best thing swings in? Why can't I have someone who just does the right thing?
You ask: What's right? What's right is what's simple: being clear, being honest, being forthcoming with plans, showing some concern, LISTENING when I explain why I'm angry AND MAKING A CHANGE RIGHT AWAY, REMEMBERING what I've continuously said makes me angry and ABSTAINING from those actions. And that's only a few.
I just want someone who wants me. I don't want someone who wants me because of how I look or whatever virtues I have. I don't want someone who wants me for what I have. I want someone who wants to be loved and who wants to show love. I don't want that one that always finds an excuse or frequently forgets. I don't want that one who hides stuff because I might get mad (especially when hiding something that would make me mad makes me even more mad). I don't want that one whose best is just a little corner of their time. And I certainly don't want the one who says with their mouth "I love you" and shows just how false that statement is by the choices they make.
I just want someone real - no bullshit excuses, no preoccupations, someone who listens, learns, and remembers, someone who doesn't seek chaos for its sake.