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i really havent posted in this thing in forever but i guess now is as good a time as ever. not much is going on right now, just the same old shit ive been doing since high school. I'm so busy with school and work i barely have any time to even have a social life or spend time with my girlfriend but hopefully everything will be okay.
ive been in the weirdest mood for the past 2 or 3 weeks, it happens quite frequently but this time i can't seem to shake it. i just feel like i hate everything, ive been depressed, and i feel like being in a drug induced state forever or even dead, yeah it scares me too sometimes.
So, I started reading a book by Alan Watts entitled "The Way of The Zen" hopefully it will help clear a few things up or give me a new perspective on life. One of my friend told me he thinks it'll help stimulate and clarify my lost but brilliant mind. I hope so.
anyways tonight is the kanye west concert, so im about to go over to marisols so we can leave. i love her and miss spending time with her. I wish i didn't have so much shit going on but i guess that's how life is unless you're a spoiled shit and your parents do everything and anything for you all the time.
i guess i'm just very lucky to be a free thinking individual.
ive been in the weirdest mood for the past 2 or 3 weeks, it happens quite frequently but this time i can't seem to shake it. i just feel like i hate everything, ive been depressed, and i feel like being in a drug induced state forever or even dead, yeah it scares me too sometimes.
So, I started reading a book by Alan Watts entitled "The Way of The Zen" hopefully it will help clear a few things up or give me a new perspective on life. One of my friend told me he thinks it'll help stimulate and clarify my lost but brilliant mind. I hope so.
anyways tonight is the kanye west concert, so im about to go over to marisols so we can leave. i love her and miss spending time with her. I wish i didn't have so much shit going on but i guess that's how life is unless you're a spoiled shit and your parents do everything and anything for you all the time.
i guess i'm just very lucky to be a free thinking individual.