Breaking Hearts
What the hell, I don't get why things have to happen the way that they do.
Why do people always seem to fall for the wrong person, who fell for the wrong person, who fell for the wrong person?
Seriously, it's so upsetting to have to break someones heart. I did nothing but get upset today about what happened. Out of the blue I got that text where the person asks for the umpteenth time if they have a chance for me and if we'll ever become anything. It takes so much to muster up the courage to say something like that to a person. I feel like shit having to reject someone over the dumbest things. There's nothing wrong with this person, they're funny, and there's perfect physical attraction. Hell knows they want me, but my hearts just not in it. So for the umpteenth time I told this person no, and gave them the same reason as before. I did this all the while knowing that they were getting my texts completely crushed.
We've all been there on the receieving end of that rejection. It's not fun to know the one person you want to be with has no interest in you at all. Esp if they don't even have a good enough excuse to be able to tell you why. They say that you're fine and that there's nothing wrong, so why aren't you dating? Are they lying to you? That's the first thing I'd think.
I've sat there questioning myself. Looking in the mirror for hours and deep inside my inner self wondering whats wrong with me and what needs to be fixed. Noticing every imperfection and flaw and not being able to see anything else. It took a long time before I really realized that I was never really broken to begin with. I'm not perfect of course, but there's always things that could be improved. I could go hit the gym and work out to make my stomach all toned and perfect, but really what's the point in all that? I'd rather go rock out at the shitty local bands show than sweating my ass off for someone that wants me only if I'm "perfect." I like that I gained 20 lbs, though i don't really plan on gaining more. I haven't gotten on a scale in months (though I probably should just to check to make sure that I only gained 20lbs haha). There's so much to life in hanging out with friends and just doing the things you want without worrying about who's watching.
A few days ago I saw someone post this, and it just goes to show you that no matter how you may look at yourself from time to time, theres always someone out there who feels differently
boo AND ya bitches :)
haha i love this thing, it's like everything solved after each post haha
Why do people always seem to fall for the wrong person, who fell for the wrong person, who fell for the wrong person?
Seriously, it's so upsetting to have to break someones heart. I did nothing but get upset today about what happened. Out of the blue I got that text where the person asks for the umpteenth time if they have a chance for me and if we'll ever become anything. It takes so much to muster up the courage to say something like that to a person. I feel like shit having to reject someone over the dumbest things. There's nothing wrong with this person, they're funny, and there's perfect physical attraction. Hell knows they want me, but my hearts just not in it. So for the umpteenth time I told this person no, and gave them the same reason as before. I did this all the while knowing that they were getting my texts completely crushed.
We've all been there on the receieving end of that rejection. It's not fun to know the one person you want to be with has no interest in you at all. Esp if they don't even have a good enough excuse to be able to tell you why. They say that you're fine and that there's nothing wrong, so why aren't you dating? Are they lying to you? That's the first thing I'd think.
I've sat there questioning myself. Looking in the mirror for hours and deep inside my inner self wondering whats wrong with me and what needs to be fixed. Noticing every imperfection and flaw and not being able to see anything else. It took a long time before I really realized that I was never really broken to begin with. I'm not perfect of course, but there's always things that could be improved. I could go hit the gym and work out to make my stomach all toned and perfect, but really what's the point in all that? I'd rather go rock out at the shitty local bands show than sweating my ass off for someone that wants me only if I'm "perfect." I like that I gained 20 lbs, though i don't really plan on gaining more. I haven't gotten on a scale in months (though I probably should just to check to make sure that I only gained 20lbs haha). There's so much to life in hanging out with friends and just doing the things you want without worrying about who's watching.
A few days ago I saw someone post this, and it just goes to show you that no matter how you may look at yourself from time to time, theres always someone out there who feels differently
boo AND ya bitches :)
haha i love this thing, it's like everything solved after each post haha