The first, and only time I will ever admit this
For 2-3 years, you guys were my on again off again friends.
You tried ruining my life, turning me against my best friend, and made me feel worthless.
You also got me to come out of my shell, brought me to my first parties, and took me out when said best friend stopped answering my phone calls.
I didn't have anyone I was very close to in high school until I met all of you. Sitting at lunch together was always fun, even though sitting down at the table always meant a drama filled catfight of who got to sit where.
Then you ditched me because I fought with your designated ringleader that you all worshiped. I was hurt, but I moved on. I realized you all hadn't after an interesting voicemail on homecoming night.
Senior year we reconnected. I became close with someone who I thought I could be best friends with my entire life. To this day there are secrets I know about you that I haven't shared with anyone. I've seen your dark side, and it's honestly frightening what you think about doing to people on a regular basis.
We hung out, and it was honestly some of the best times of my life. If it wasn't for you, I'd be sitting at home hurt that one of my best friends didn't want to see me. Instead I went out to movies, dinners, parties, and late night drives out to who knows where.
Everything that you all are is fucked up and drama filled. Don't get me wrong, I love drama, but not in my life. The said best friend and I patched things up and got closer together, as much as you loved trying to tear me away and bring me closer to you.
That being said, as much as I can waste my energy hating you, here's to the times I wish we could have had. I can't exactly call any of my current friends up to go see a movie or head out for ice cream anytime I want because they all live too far for that. Instead I sit alone some nights and wonder how everything went wrong. I can't count the number of times I wished we could have just one last party.
I miss you
A famed old memory
Nico being a goof
Junior Prom
A day at the beach
Parties
... No words
But as I miss you
Hell will freeze over before we're all friends again.
To my current friends, I love you all. Though you may not live 5 minutes walking distance from me, I know you're just a phone call away.
You tried ruining my life, turning me against my best friend, and made me feel worthless.
You also got me to come out of my shell, brought me to my first parties, and took me out when said best friend stopped answering my phone calls.
I didn't have anyone I was very close to in high school until I met all of you. Sitting at lunch together was always fun, even though sitting down at the table always meant a drama filled catfight of who got to sit where.
Then you ditched me because I fought with your designated ringleader that you all worshiped. I was hurt, but I moved on. I realized you all hadn't after an interesting voicemail on homecoming night.
Senior year we reconnected. I became close with someone who I thought I could be best friends with my entire life. To this day there are secrets I know about you that I haven't shared with anyone. I've seen your dark side, and it's honestly frightening what you think about doing to people on a regular basis.
We hung out, and it was honestly some of the best times of my life. If it wasn't for you, I'd be sitting at home hurt that one of my best friends didn't want to see me. Instead I went out to movies, dinners, parties, and late night drives out to who knows where.
Everything that you all are is fucked up and drama filled. Don't get me wrong, I love drama, but not in my life. The said best friend and I patched things up and got closer together, as much as you loved trying to tear me away and bring me closer to you.
That being said, as much as I can waste my energy hating you, here's to the times I wish we could have had. I can't exactly call any of my current friends up to go see a movie or head out for ice cream anytime I want because they all live too far for that. Instead I sit alone some nights and wonder how everything went wrong. I can't count the number of times I wished we could have just one last party.
I miss you
A famed old memory
Nico being a goof
Junior Prom
A day at the beach
Parties
... No words
But as I miss you
Hell will freeze over before we're all friends again.
To my current friends, I love you all. Though you may not live 5 minutes walking distance from me, I know you're just a phone call away.