lack of faith
it seems that as every day goes by i lose more faith in God. i never really was a religious person to begin with, but what faith i had has diminished significantly of late. I love *sarcasm* gods sense of humor, and how all my problems have to deal with my penis. Erica said she didnt think im attracted to her yesterday. This isnt true, i like her very much and its more to. I have been happy for the first time in a while, a long while. She makes me feel good and i love spending time with her. the thing is is that im probably the wrong person for her, cuz i have no fuckin clue what im doing and im a coward. i can a strong with other people and things but i am a coward where i want to be strong most. hmmmm yeah life sucks. oh yeah and i was called gay yesterday by both erica and andrea, just so you know, im not fuckin gay. i hate gays. ive made fun of em since i was a child. and people have called me gay cuz i havnt had a g/f before and they piss me off. so now whenever sum1 calls me gay i get angry, just lettin ya know. idk what the fuck im doin today. im gettin the g-track back i hope. then we will see