I am stealing this from sarah, sorry sarah
I believe that it is time to reflect on my past life. now that i can be on the outside looking in.
so here goes.
Music,
Music... thank god for you. i could not survive with out you. i was infact in SACC for a full 12 years, some may say wow mara you are so lame, but to those i say: SACC made me the person that i am today, specifically darnelle. she taught me my discipline my musical literacy and how to be a person that people generally don't hate, i owe my life to you SACC and i would not know what it was like to poor my whole heart into something with out you and i miss you more than i think anything in the world. so those of you who aren't in it and need a place where ferris music is not cutting it for you, you know who you are *cough annie mayhew cough* it was the only thing that gave me perspective to sing with others that shared the same feelings that i have expressed to you and to all of you GOD I MISS YOU all of you who were in SACC you knew me better than anyone that i can think of. you were and will always be my definition of family. darnelle thanx for being our momma hen and guiding us when we needed it and even when we didn't.
Friends.
WOW. there are just so many of you. i believe junior year i was close with an entirely different set of people. but i love you all. loyalty and trust is hard to come by and you guys made it so easy to trust you. INDIVID. SHOUT OUTS. DANA CHRISTINE, if not for you forcing me to be in theatre i would not have all of these friends that i think so highly of, one of them being you. even when i was being the biggest idiot of the century, circumstances of which i am sure you do remember, you always were there for me and i will always be eternally greatful.your kindness is only exceeded by your talent, don't give up dana,you have what it takes i know you do. DAVID, wow you are the most amazing guy that i have ever had the pleasure of coming across. you look at life for it's potential and not for it's flaws which threw me, i have never met anyone like that before, i don't think i have ever heard you complain, imagine my surprise at our friendship, you seem to enjoy life for what it is and not for what it could be. when i am with you i feel like a better person for knowing you and just.. you made my life not only better but bearable this year. we shared so much, i believe there really isn't nothing that you don't know about me, we have reached a point in which you know not only when there is something wrong but what it is. of everyone that i know i admire you the most. ALICIA> you are just the greatest gal that i have had the pleasure to meet. and i miss you terribly, you are wise beyond your years and can always help when i need it and unfortunately i have needed it quite often. you always make me feel like there is something in me to be proud of even when others treat me as if i am a nobody. you have never turned your back on a friend, even when it was the popular thing to do, which is more than i can say for most everyone, even if we end up moving to far for contact i shall never forget everything that you have done for me, i love you.' AMANDA- dear sweet amanda, i was quite surprised that we became friends given our boyfriend swaping, but now i wouldn't trade you for the entire world. even when people are cruel to you, you look for a way to be kind to them even though they CERTAINLY do not deserve it. you are better than i amanda louise and i learn from you more than i ever thought i would. you are wonderously kind and amazingly beautiful, if i were to pick a wife for matt there is no one better for the role, i hope he realizes how lucky he is. BRIAN. i loves me dirty queer. you always make me laugh, i don't know how you do it because i am quite the jaded lady but always. i must say i am impressed brian if i were to live with any dirty queer to solve cancer it would be you. i miss me bri, quite possibly the most. EMILY. there really is nothing i can say, we grew up together and i wouldn't trade you for the whole universe. you always put me in my place, which i don't always like but i do certainly always need. even though i am older than you, you always look out for me so thanx emily you the shit i have really no words to say how thankful i am for you emily louise, your wit aka racist jokes are bound to get you in trouble but people will laugh anyway. you always rub off on people and no one is ever the same after meeting you and i am the one who has the honor of being your best friend. thank you for everything emily, we will be attached forever. PANCNER- you are bitchin. i miss you so much, it has been quite hard to trust people this year, witnessing all of the backstabbing and you never ever let me down andrew, i trusted you and that may not seem like much but it really is, you know my feelings about you and mckenze, i only wish that you had ended up with someone who could have challenged you and made you laugh, someone who could make your heart jump not only when her mouth was closed. andrew you have taught me more than i expected to learn from you, you taught me that being me is far more important than making people like you. you were you no matter what and i can't tell you how many times you brightened my room with your presence.
Alex'
yes yes he gets his own section, he is my best friend and the one person that i love most in the world. Alex coming back has made me the happiest i have been in quite a while. it's kinda like when you lose something, it's almost worth losing for the feeling you get when you find it again.I had no idea how much i missed you untill i saw you again.honey-babe we have ahd quite the number of rough spots but somehow we have always come out stronger, some credit is due to alicia thanks licia. and it seems as if the world really doesn't want us to be friends but we keep on keepin on. thank you for never giving up on me. i know that i have told you this so many times but you are quite possibly the bravest person i know. the way you live your life takes far more courage than i could ever even hope to muster. you're kindness and understanding of others is extraordinary, even those who don't do you the same courtesy. you simply put me in awe every time we are together. you are smarter than you think you are, you are more attractive than you think you are, and for the love of moses you are far more talented than you think you are. you are just. i just love you so much. when we were in high school at the same time and on that bus my life was normal and ordinary and....dull and there you were and you crashed into my life and screwed up my views of fun and courage and normalcy essentially. and you were out there and crazy and you and just thank god for you alexander seth. since then you have just been this constant in my life whether you are in town or not, our friendship makes absolutely no sence to me and i have no idea where we stand......ever, a little like you, but never the less, in whatever state, you are always there. to make me laugh or to argue with me or to tell me that i am being an idiot, which by the way i don't like so much. you make me think and work to be a better person, you challenge me every day, there's no other way to better say i love you. but i do love you and that's the strongest thing and the best thing that i own that i can give you. i wish i could give you the world because you deserve it, but since it doesn't look like that will happen soon i can still love you sooo much. the things that happen to you, you certainly do not deserve and if you keep truckin god will give you a break, he has to, you go through so much and have every right to cry....every minute.......of every day....for the rest of your life, but you can always crack a smile and still manage to force me to crack one too. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. and you all know how much i have missed him. so there i will finish.
MY ENEMIES
i will not name your names you know who you are. you have frusterated and challenged me beyond all reason, and in no way will i forgive you for the awful feeling that you made me feel because of your pathetic insecurities about your self or for whatever lame ass excuse you cooked up to make your self feel better about making other people feel shitty. never the less i have learned from you that as long as i live i never want to end up a bitter person like those of you who are out there that hate for the sake of hating. perhaps before putting others down you should look at yourself and try to better yourself and stop worrying about others and their flaws. Untill you are perfect yourself what right have you to make others feel awful about themselves. if you would just worry about yourself those of us that had to put up with you would not have to waste our time with you. so now that we are out of high school it is time for you ot grow up and realize that just because you say hateful things about us, you shall not break us, but by all means keep trying and we'll see where you go in life and we'll see where those you have tortured go.
so dearest friends and not so dearest friends
this is my out look on old life in spokompton, everyone should get out, it's good for you
so here goes.
Music,
Music... thank god for you. i could not survive with out you. i was infact in SACC for a full 12 years, some may say wow mara you are so lame, but to those i say: SACC made me the person that i am today, specifically darnelle. she taught me my discipline my musical literacy and how to be a person that people generally don't hate, i owe my life to you SACC and i would not know what it was like to poor my whole heart into something with out you and i miss you more than i think anything in the world. so those of you who aren't in it and need a place where ferris music is not cutting it for you, you know who you are *cough annie mayhew cough* it was the only thing that gave me perspective to sing with others that shared the same feelings that i have expressed to you and to all of you GOD I MISS YOU all of you who were in SACC you knew me better than anyone that i can think of. you were and will always be my definition of family. darnelle thanx for being our momma hen and guiding us when we needed it and even when we didn't.
Friends.
WOW. there are just so many of you. i believe junior year i was close with an entirely different set of people. but i love you all. loyalty and trust is hard to come by and you guys made it so easy to trust you. INDIVID. SHOUT OUTS. DANA CHRISTINE, if not for you forcing me to be in theatre i would not have all of these friends that i think so highly of, one of them being you. even when i was being the biggest idiot of the century, circumstances of which i am sure you do remember, you always were there for me and i will always be eternally greatful.your kindness is only exceeded by your talent, don't give up dana,you have what it takes i know you do. DAVID, wow you are the most amazing guy that i have ever had the pleasure of coming across. you look at life for it's potential and not for it's flaws which threw me, i have never met anyone like that before, i don't think i have ever heard you complain, imagine my surprise at our friendship, you seem to enjoy life for what it is and not for what it could be. when i am with you i feel like a better person for knowing you and just.. you made my life not only better but bearable this year. we shared so much, i believe there really isn't nothing that you don't know about me, we have reached a point in which you know not only when there is something wrong but what it is. of everyone that i know i admire you the most. ALICIA> you are just the greatest gal that i have had the pleasure to meet. and i miss you terribly, you are wise beyond your years and can always help when i need it and unfortunately i have needed it quite often. you always make me feel like there is something in me to be proud of even when others treat me as if i am a nobody. you have never turned your back on a friend, even when it was the popular thing to do, which is more than i can say for most everyone, even if we end up moving to far for contact i shall never forget everything that you have done for me, i love you.' AMANDA- dear sweet amanda, i was quite surprised that we became friends given our boyfriend swaping, but now i wouldn't trade you for the entire world. even when people are cruel to you, you look for a way to be kind to them even though they CERTAINLY do not deserve it. you are better than i amanda louise and i learn from you more than i ever thought i would. you are wonderously kind and amazingly beautiful, if i were to pick a wife for matt there is no one better for the role, i hope he realizes how lucky he is. BRIAN. i loves me dirty queer. you always make me laugh, i don't know how you do it because i am quite the jaded lady but always. i must say i am impressed brian if i were to live with any dirty queer to solve cancer it would be you. i miss me bri, quite possibly the most. EMILY. there really is nothing i can say, we grew up together and i wouldn't trade you for the whole universe. you always put me in my place, which i don't always like but i do certainly always need. even though i am older than you, you always look out for me so thanx emily you the shit i have really no words to say how thankful i am for you emily louise, your wit aka racist jokes are bound to get you in trouble but people will laugh anyway. you always rub off on people and no one is ever the same after meeting you and i am the one who has the honor of being your best friend. thank you for everything emily, we will be attached forever. PANCNER- you are bitchin. i miss you so much, it has been quite hard to trust people this year, witnessing all of the backstabbing and you never ever let me down andrew, i trusted you and that may not seem like much but it really is, you know my feelings about you and mckenze, i only wish that you had ended up with someone who could have challenged you and made you laugh, someone who could make your heart jump not only when her mouth was closed. andrew you have taught me more than i expected to learn from you, you taught me that being me is far more important than making people like you. you were you no matter what and i can't tell you how many times you brightened my room with your presence.
Alex'
yes yes he gets his own section, he is my best friend and the one person that i love most in the world. Alex coming back has made me the happiest i have been in quite a while. it's kinda like when you lose something, it's almost worth losing for the feeling you get when you find it again.I had no idea how much i missed you untill i saw you again.honey-babe we have ahd quite the number of rough spots but somehow we have always come out stronger, some credit is due to alicia thanks licia. and it seems as if the world really doesn't want us to be friends but we keep on keepin on. thank you for never giving up on me. i know that i have told you this so many times but you are quite possibly the bravest person i know. the way you live your life takes far more courage than i could ever even hope to muster. you're kindness and understanding of others is extraordinary, even those who don't do you the same courtesy. you simply put me in awe every time we are together. you are smarter than you think you are, you are more attractive than you think you are, and for the love of moses you are far more talented than you think you are. you are just. i just love you so much. when we were in high school at the same time and on that bus my life was normal and ordinary and....dull and there you were and you crashed into my life and screwed up my views of fun and courage and normalcy essentially. and you were out there and crazy and you and just thank god for you alexander seth. since then you have just been this constant in my life whether you are in town or not, our friendship makes absolutely no sence to me and i have no idea where we stand......ever, a little like you, but never the less, in whatever state, you are always there. to make me laugh or to argue with me or to tell me that i am being an idiot, which by the way i don't like so much. you make me think and work to be a better person, you challenge me every day, there's no other way to better say i love you. but i do love you and that's the strongest thing and the best thing that i own that i can give you. i wish i could give you the world because you deserve it, but since it doesn't look like that will happen soon i can still love you sooo much. the things that happen to you, you certainly do not deserve and if you keep truckin god will give you a break, he has to, you go through so much and have every right to cry....every minute.......of every day....for the rest of your life, but you can always crack a smile and still manage to force me to crack one too. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. and you all know how much i have missed him. so there i will finish.
MY ENEMIES
i will not name your names you know who you are. you have frusterated and challenged me beyond all reason, and in no way will i forgive you for the awful feeling that you made me feel because of your pathetic insecurities about your self or for whatever lame ass excuse you cooked up to make your self feel better about making other people feel shitty. never the less i have learned from you that as long as i live i never want to end up a bitter person like those of you who are out there that hate for the sake of hating. perhaps before putting others down you should look at yourself and try to better yourself and stop worrying about others and their flaws. Untill you are perfect yourself what right have you to make others feel awful about themselves. if you would just worry about yourself those of us that had to put up with you would not have to waste our time with you. so now that we are out of high school it is time for you ot grow up and realize that just because you say hateful things about us, you shall not break us, but by all means keep trying and we'll see where you go in life and we'll see where those you have tortured go.
so dearest friends and not so dearest friends
this is my out look on old life in spokompton, everyone should get out, it's good for you