ZOMG!
ladies and gentlemen. i told you i'd be back on here more. and here i am. since last you heard from me things haven't gone exactly as planned. in fact, i've spent the past days wandering the dark wastelands of my soul. boy oh boy is it dark there. i really can't talk enough about the darkness. man, there's like, not even candles. nothingness streches on with not a jamba juice in sight. dip'n dots, no sir. volcanic rock, ash, self doubt, and one arby's...my god...beer me strength. but things do change in this world. the classics do go out of style...they do....they do. and somehow, we all get up and go in the mornings and we rarely know why. moments of pure focus, where our lives align with the slow drag of the tides, are rare. but today, this morning especially, i sure could have used one. bad morning coffee. bad classes. and i came home to a landslide of bills. literally a month's wages in 3 envelopes. and boy was i down. not even the cheerful greetings from willis, the guy who cuts my lawn, could help. that's right, i got a guy who cuts my lawn...so fresh. but back to me being oh so sad...so uncertain...shaken to my very bones i was, children. and then it happened...a singularity...pure beauty...happiness...the beginnings of renewal...all in one brilliant, iphone app?
i present, with great pleasure, I AM T-PAIN
surely, the coming days and weeks will be full of more self loathing. more doubt. more poor decisions. weakness. folly. sweatpants and half beards. but as long as things like this exist and find me, as long as my friends are supportive, beautiful people(which they all are and always will be), as long as the internet lives another day, little by little, i'm gonna see a little clearer and things will start looking up. also in the spring i'll be able to take out loans and pay my medical bills.
yes us can!
i present, with great pleasure, I AM T-PAIN
Click to viewsurely, the coming days and weeks will be full of more self loathing. more doubt. more poor decisions. weakness. folly. sweatpants and half beards. but as long as things like this exist and find me, as long as my friends are supportive, beautiful people(which they all are and always will be), as long as the internet lives another day, little by little, i'm gonna see a little clearer and things will start looking up. also in the spring i'll be able to take out loans and pay my medical bills.
yes us can!