another copy of a copy of a copy...
I feel....inadiquiate.
inexperienced?
I'm not sure what I feel.
I mean, I'm happy with the way things are going...I just feel like it's all going to end anyway. I always seem to doubt myself in those minutes it takes to get down the hill.
I know this isn't making any sense to any of you...but oh well.
I just wish sometimes that I wasn't so awkward. That I had more confidence. Things would be different.
I think too much about the aftermath... I lost sleep over it last night...and then was late for work this morning because I lost sleep.
Again...aftermath.
I feel like things in my life need to move more quickly..
but then again, I feel like if they moved more quickly I would be overwhelmed and wouldn't end up going through with them.
Do you see where I'm feeling confused here?
Or am I just confusing you too...
The weekend's here. Thank god.
Maggie gets home in 14 days. Thank god.
I miss her. I miss lyndsay too. Weird enough? I miss evan too. I was reading old entries. We had fun.
inexperienced?
I'm not sure what I feel.
I mean, I'm happy with the way things are going...I just feel like it's all going to end anyway. I always seem to doubt myself in those minutes it takes to get down the hill.
I know this isn't making any sense to any of you...but oh well.
I just wish sometimes that I wasn't so awkward. That I had more confidence. Things would be different.
I think too much about the aftermath... I lost sleep over it last night...and then was late for work this morning because I lost sleep.
Again...aftermath.
I feel like things in my life need to move more quickly..
but then again, I feel like if they moved more quickly I would be overwhelmed and wouldn't end up going through with them.
Do you see where I'm feeling confused here?
Or am I just confusing you too...
The weekend's here. Thank god.
Maggie gets home in 14 days. Thank god.
I miss her. I miss lyndsay too. Weird enough? I miss evan too. I was reading old entries. We had fun.