...a death in the family
know how weird it feels when someone you know is suddenly gone forever? you'll never hear that person's voice or laughter anymore.
yeah I've experienced this a few times, but not with a family member, not lately. Not with someone though I will admit I wasn't very very close to but was someone I would spend my vacations in the US with.
and i must say:
I don't know how to feel about it. Again I am confused. Should I just act as if she didn't really mean anything to my life and go on with things? Or should I show it and thus to everyone else that I'm sad. I don't know what's appropriate and it really gets me.
But then again the fact that this is bothering me means that she did mean something to me.
Before I went back to school she told me about her doctor back in the US, and that he reminded her of a grown up me, a doctor, taking good care of his patients. The voice, the tone, the look, the stature, as she told me.
Funny thing is though, at that time I was home, I was seriously doubting that in my mind. All I could do was smile at her and say thank you.
Maybe that's what struck me the most about her? Especially now I'm in my senior year and quite "aptly" on that crossroad of confusion of what's to happen to me in my future? But that's another story.
God help me.
yeah I've experienced this a few times, but not with a family member, not lately. Not with someone though I will admit I wasn't very very close to but was someone I would spend my vacations in the US with.
and i must say:
I don't know how to feel about it. Again I am confused. Should I just act as if she didn't really mean anything to my life and go on with things? Or should I show it and thus to everyone else that I'm sad. I don't know what's appropriate and it really gets me.
But then again the fact that this is bothering me means that she did mean something to me.
Before I went back to school she told me about her doctor back in the US, and that he reminded her of a grown up me, a doctor, taking good care of his patients. The voice, the tone, the look, the stature, as she told me.
Funny thing is though, at that time I was home, I was seriously doubting that in my mind. All I could do was smile at her and say thank you.
Maybe that's what struck me the most about her? Especially now I'm in my senior year and quite "aptly" on that crossroad of confusion of what's to happen to me in my future? But that's another story.
God help me.