aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnddd....(does hampster dance)
The job has posted but there are computer problems!!! GAH! gimme a break!!
Ok so now that the computer problems are ove rIm waiting on an email to garantee my hiring at this job at present. THe anticipation is killing me. I suppose I must learn more patience but something so grand is hard to be patient for. The key element is that with patience is self control with that self control there is a clear mind with a clear mind there must be lack of distraction which brings me to my delimia on account that the job itself is a destraction due to it getting me out of debt at a much swifter pace. It has comsumed me more than anything ever in the world. Even in my so called "falling in love" this job has taken that place. Though fear not my friends for it is not greed that drives me but the freedom from greed of others. Of course this money also gets me to where I long to visit it almost hurts to think about...statesboro. I find that I did much of my growing up in kentucky, but I became more aware of myself in statesboro. It is a place of loyalty, friendship,regret, passion, and much needed rest and relaxation. Not that Ive had terribly hard jobs but stress is a tiring thing and I do tend to get stressed much easier than I should. My main goal is to become a new me mixed with the old one where my creativity returns and my new found sense of responsibility combine into a decent fellow instead of the hollow shell I feel I have become. Its like youve been part of a wheel in perfect synchronization with the other parts but then suddenly you break off and cant find your place on the wheel again so you watch the wheel spin hoping to find your place on it again. I want to go back to the selfless serving attitude I had but even with the job I have at cheveron I cant help but look at the people who come in look at some whos ignorance of life is clear on them and scoff at them automatically place them down with trash and hope they leave soon. and part of me is screaming that it is not entirely their fault that they are stuck in this cycle. perhaps they havent seen anything better or that motivation. Its as if theyve lost their instinct to do more than survive but to better yourself. I think of how much a geek I really am since I can relate my way I wish to live is that of like a jedi lol. But wish me luck for I need it with this job. I want it so I can be free
Ok so now that the computer problems are ove rIm waiting on an email to garantee my hiring at this job at present. THe anticipation is killing me. I suppose I must learn more patience but something so grand is hard to be patient for. The key element is that with patience is self control with that self control there is a clear mind with a clear mind there must be lack of distraction which brings me to my delimia on account that the job itself is a destraction due to it getting me out of debt at a much swifter pace. It has comsumed me more than anything ever in the world. Even in my so called "falling in love" this job has taken that place. Though fear not my friends for it is not greed that drives me but the freedom from greed of others. Of course this money also gets me to where I long to visit it almost hurts to think about...statesboro. I find that I did much of my growing up in kentucky, but I became more aware of myself in statesboro. It is a place of loyalty, friendship,regret, passion, and much needed rest and relaxation. Not that Ive had terribly hard jobs but stress is a tiring thing and I do tend to get stressed much easier than I should. My main goal is to become a new me mixed with the old one where my creativity returns and my new found sense of responsibility combine into a decent fellow instead of the hollow shell I feel I have become. Its like youve been part of a wheel in perfect synchronization with the other parts but then suddenly you break off and cant find your place on the wheel again so you watch the wheel spin hoping to find your place on it again. I want to go back to the selfless serving attitude I had but even with the job I have at cheveron I cant help but look at the people who come in look at some whos ignorance of life is clear on them and scoff at them automatically place them down with trash and hope they leave soon. and part of me is screaming that it is not entirely their fault that they are stuck in this cycle. perhaps they havent seen anything better or that motivation. Its as if theyve lost their instinct to do more than survive but to better yourself. I think of how much a geek I really am since I can relate my way I wish to live is that of like a jedi lol. But wish me luck for I need it with this job. I want it so I can be free