Baby Got Back
First let me clear up a few things I should've said days ago.
August 8th was the birthday of the one of the best people I've ever met. So I want to say on here Happy Birthday Ali!
I also want to say that another friend of mine, Kara, got royally screwed over by some idiot coworkers who dug into her personal life to bring up things that have absolutely *nothing* to do with her job or capacity to do her job, and got her kicked out of her training for IUPD which was her path to the career she really wanted. I think cops wouldn't have quite such a negative rep if they'd take more people like Kara and less of the losers who would do shady things like that to get her kicked out. I'm really sorry Kara, and I hope everything works out ok for you.
I'm under the impression no one has had a good summer. I've had three or four people tell me they can't wait for the semester to start back up again. I think after I post this I'm going to try to make an objective list of everything good and bad that's happened this summer and see just how bad it really has been for me.
It's a little obnoxious that I seem to learn about Jamie's life lately through Jeremy's journal. Partially because it's hard to read. Hopefully by mentioning her in my journal she'll decide to get ahold of me so I can hear what's up from her.
And if Jeremy reads this like I kind of hope he does (hence why this entry is public) then I wish he'd take that bit of advice I gave him, and to be honest if he wants he's free to contact me and I'll give him plenty more good advice where that came from. Hopefully he'll be able to use half a brain and realize that advice I give him is in the best interests of Jamie, which *should* be what he wants. Plus I'm capable of being an objective outside perspective which is something that, judging from his journal, he's not able to do by himself at all.
My summer's been very bipolar. I've had a few really, really good points (e.g., Tossers concert/Chicago with Misti) and a few really, really bad points (e.g., noneyodamnbidness). I'm not sure which caused which or whether there's even a correlation, but I've also been leaning towards two very bipolar changes in my lifestyle and mentality in general. Paradoxically I feel like choosing one direction will lead me towards being happier with my life, while the other direction will lead me towards being happier with myself.
I'm feeling a little more lucid lately. The last five or six years I've felt almost perpetually in a fog, unable to focus and concentrate like I feel I should be able to and not able to think as clearly nor I believe as intelligently as I should be. I've had friends tell me that's what depression feels like.
I'm still having the foggy-headed problem now--mostly due to my working overnights, I believe, but on my days off I'm noticing a lot more moments of clarity. I hope that's a sign that I'm going back to my old genius ways.
There's a lot more still to be said. Will I? Dunno. We'll see.
August 8th was the birthday of the one of the best people I've ever met. So I want to say on here Happy Birthday Ali!
I also want to say that another friend of mine, Kara, got royally screwed over by some idiot coworkers who dug into her personal life to bring up things that have absolutely *nothing* to do with her job or capacity to do her job, and got her kicked out of her training for IUPD which was her path to the career she really wanted. I think cops wouldn't have quite such a negative rep if they'd take more people like Kara and less of the losers who would do shady things like that to get her kicked out. I'm really sorry Kara, and I hope everything works out ok for you.
I'm under the impression no one has had a good summer. I've had three or four people tell me they can't wait for the semester to start back up again. I think after I post this I'm going to try to make an objective list of everything good and bad that's happened this summer and see just how bad it really has been for me.
It's a little obnoxious that I seem to learn about Jamie's life lately through Jeremy's journal. Partially because it's hard to read. Hopefully by mentioning her in my journal she'll decide to get ahold of me so I can hear what's up from her.
And if Jeremy reads this like I kind of hope he does (hence why this entry is public) then I wish he'd take that bit of advice I gave him, and to be honest if he wants he's free to contact me and I'll give him plenty more good advice where that came from. Hopefully he'll be able to use half a brain and realize that advice I give him is in the best interests of Jamie, which *should* be what he wants. Plus I'm capable of being an objective outside perspective which is something that, judging from his journal, he's not able to do by himself at all.
My summer's been very bipolar. I've had a few really, really good points (e.g., Tossers concert/Chicago with Misti) and a few really, really bad points (e.g., noneyodamnbidness). I'm not sure which caused which or whether there's even a correlation, but I've also been leaning towards two very bipolar changes in my lifestyle and mentality in general. Paradoxically I feel like choosing one direction will lead me towards being happier with my life, while the other direction will lead me towards being happier with myself.
I'm feeling a little more lucid lately. The last five or six years I've felt almost perpetually in a fog, unable to focus and concentrate like I feel I should be able to and not able to think as clearly nor I believe as intelligently as I should be. I've had friends tell me that's what depression feels like.
I'm still having the foggy-headed problem now--mostly due to my working overnights, I believe, but on my days off I'm noticing a lot more moments of clarity. I hope that's a sign that I'm going back to my old genius ways.
There's a lot more still to be said. Will I? Dunno. We'll see.