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[steve_n_annabel]

today was good. i love baptisims. and agoing to new churches. brad goertzen (kimmmys bro) and jill, and bergen were today. it was inspiering. bergen really is aweseom, and commited, and has changed. i love it, and want to talk / hang out with him yet. jill was good too. brad pumped me up, i only knew him i lil bit in gr 6. but man can he write, his testimony was so interestind and well writen. yeah good times. lots of ppl go to that church. joelle took my place at the v ball touny i forgot about aht, that makes me feel lots better, i owe her. maybe ill get her flowers. yeah i will. in life i am confused. i feel like i do a lot of good stuff. and then i am told or i relize that i am terrrible. then i dont know what ot think. i want to know both good and bad. good so taht i dont hate myself, and bad so i can workon it and change, but i am confused. andi have this feeling hanging over me. i cant explains it. on thursday the only graspable thohg was stacey, ninner stacey. i have no idea what or why, but taht is all i can feel from the feeling. and fri i dont know. hangin with ppls is so helpful. i feel so much better i need to get real about devos, and cherish and protect my God time. its what keeps me sane. and going. i cry out to God.
(writing poem)
cries of distree
i love God and thank him for opening poetry to me. it is healing.

went to ashelys today. she is aweseom. fun kid.

Current Goals for betterment of life
less oppinons
listen more
read and pray more
not lie
care about people
relax
respect what i dont understand