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It takes being with someone who is still a "minor" to make you realize all the stuff that was taken from you
The things you looked for and never found.
The events you looked forward to and yet never went to.
The people you wanted to be around you and never were.
It's funny to go back and read things through the eyes of my own underage self. I had such a warped mind..yet I have cured myself. (Snip Snip)
Anyways back the beginning. Since we couldn't go clubbing yesterday at 12am. Kassandra, Stuart, and myself drove to to beach. Daytona Beach to be exact (Which i do not recommend, it's so scary and ghetto at night)...anywho, I got to visit my old Krispy Kreme from when i was like 3 or 4...when how much I ate didnt determine how much i weighed nor did i care. ( I would pay millions to weigh what i did when i was 4 lol!!) The beach was soo much fun.
When I walked into that Krispy Kreme it got me thinking. The feeling that I felt was the feeling that I have been searching for my whole life. The feeling that I tried to get other people to give me but they wouldn't. The feeling that would ultimately lead to my undying happiness. The feeling of dependability. I mean that Krispy Kreme has been around for god knows how long and I was able to walk into that very Krispy Kreme and know that they would provide me with Fresh-cooked warm scrumptious doughnuts. It was something that even after all these years it is still there for me. It is filled with memories and laughter and even my whole timeline from when i first stepped foot inside it at my first trip to daytona beach to yesterday when I just wanted an escape. It was able to give me all the feelings that complete me and still make me full. That Krispy Kreme is my perfect boyfriend.
I guess it was just nice to see that after everything has changed so much. At least one thing was still there waiting for me with open arms.
I have depressed myself
I am unorganized.
I need a new cell phone plan..
The things you looked for and never found.
The events you looked forward to and yet never went to.
The people you wanted to be around you and never were.
It's funny to go back and read things through the eyes of my own underage self. I had such a warped mind..yet I have cured myself. (Snip Snip)
Anyways back the beginning. Since we couldn't go clubbing yesterday at 12am. Kassandra, Stuart, and myself drove to to beach. Daytona Beach to be exact (Which i do not recommend, it's so scary and ghetto at night)...anywho, I got to visit my old Krispy Kreme from when i was like 3 or 4...when how much I ate didnt determine how much i weighed nor did i care. ( I would pay millions to weigh what i did when i was 4 lol!!) The beach was soo much fun.
When I walked into that Krispy Kreme it got me thinking. The feeling that I felt was the feeling that I have been searching for my whole life. The feeling that I tried to get other people to give me but they wouldn't. The feeling that would ultimately lead to my undying happiness. The feeling of dependability. I mean that Krispy Kreme has been around for god knows how long and I was able to walk into that very Krispy Kreme and know that they would provide me with Fresh-cooked warm scrumptious doughnuts. It was something that even after all these years it is still there for me. It is filled with memories and laughter and even my whole timeline from when i first stepped foot inside it at my first trip to daytona beach to yesterday when I just wanted an escape. It was able to give me all the feelings that complete me and still make me full. That Krispy Kreme is my perfect boyfriend.
I guess it was just nice to see that after everything has changed so much. At least one thing was still there waiting for me with open arms.
I have depressed myself
I am unorganized.
I need a new cell phone plan..