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My thoughts of the evening, in bullet form cause they are very random:
- Nutella is scandelously good.
- I described chocolate mousse today as "God's gift to women". I might have to change my mind after that Nutella, though.
- Tomorrow is Saturday. I hate Saturdays. They are the longest work days for me. 4.5 hrs in the water, no food, no breaks. However, tomorrow is also Cinco de Mayo. Tequila, here I come!
- My "tentative" summer schedule is horrific and makes me want to quit my job. Split shifts Mon-Thurs, Fri and Sat mornings. AKA - Jamie sells her soul to the Swim Academy. This means that I won't be able to work out for free anymore at Jazzercise, and that sucks. A lot. I will have to resort to lots of yoga classes - which is awesome because I am in love with yoga now, but it is so so expensive and one of the places is 30 minutes away. Which leads me to my next random thought,
- I am not doing a very good job at saving my money. True, it took me a while to get back on my feet and pay off all my bills and buy the things I've needed for a long time now, like a new cell phone, but I have to do better at saving if I'm going to have my surgery in November. I'm going to make a budget this weekend, and the most important things will be my car insurance, my cell phone, gas, my organic foods, and my yoga. And I will put away a good bit of money every month. And keep better track of my checking account. I made a big oops last week and went into overdraft, and my bank charged me $220, which I think is insane, but it was my own fault. Is it worth it to try and get that money back, do you think?
- Speaking of organic foods and yoga, I've been thinking a lot about going back to school to get my masters in nutrition, as opposed to going to PA school. I'm really liking the direction my life is taking, with being more healthy and connecting with myself and doing things that are good for my body, and I feel like going to PA school where I would learn about diseases and all the chemicals used to treat them would be a step backwards. I want to learn more about nutrition and holistic approaches to things, and help other people understand them too. I want to be active in my life, and teach aerobics, or Jazzercise, or yoga, or Pilates. The Psyc major and ED history girl wants to talk to people that are overweight or struggle with their eating and figure out WHY they are having problems, instead of just altering their diet and exercise habits to get the quick fix. Food is so emotional, but I think so many doctors and maybe even nutritionists overlook the emotional part in order to give someone the outside results they are looking for. "Here, take this pill", or "Here, if you eat 1500 calories a day you will lose weight". Maybe that will work for a while. But how about, "When did you first struggle with your weight? Oh, when your parents went through a nasty divorce when you were 15. Oh, when your mom was diagnosed with a mental disorder. And what happens when you think about these things? Oh, you stress out and grab the jar of peanut butter."
- While the nutrition thing sounds really good to me right now, I think there will be a part of me that will always be unfulfilled if I don't dip my hands into theatre. I'm not talking Broadway (although I wouldn't be opposed to that...). But I have no experience. Zero. Where does a 22 year old go to learn how to sing and act? And are they gonna laugh me out the back door when I tell them my dream?
- Speaking of theatre, I have turned into a total fangirl over Kristin Chenoweth and Idina Menzel. Its sad, really. But oh so delicious.
- I want to go to LA in August to go visit my mom's friend and her baby, and to see Wicked before Eden and Megan leave. And also to see the place I've been telling peope I'm going to move to for years now. Who knows if I will. Anybody up for that trip with me?
- I also need to go to Chicago to visit M. And the city of Chicago. And the strip club that she has fallen in love with. And to see how bi she has really become. Her response when I told her I've always known she wasn't totally straight? "Amazing. Prey tell."
- Ok, so my random bullets are actually not quite so random. Yay for free-flowing cohesive thoughts. And maybe now that I've written them all down, I can go to sleep. \