To the limits of physical exhaustion.
I cleaned the back yard today. It looks much better now and feels a TON better than before. Something about a nice, clean, clear space to just sit in and enjoy is so right.
That was after the session. This one was a joint session with Rak and myself. It was productive. Hard, but productive. I showed a bit of what I am inside, which seemed to frighten everyone in the room a bit. There’s a deep, dark place that I tend to keep well locked-down under most circumstances and I gave just a glimpse, a reflection of its shadow, and that was enough to provoke quite the reaction. It did, however, seem to let them know (or at least have some idea of) what I feel and what I am inside. There really is nobody else out there like me and it is a very lonely and frustrating situation.
Maybe I’m just insane.
Broke up my sleep pattern because of the session, cleaning, and other things that needed to be taken care of so I’m quite tired now. Good thing for me I don’t have a very strenuous job. Getting all the way through the night will be entertaining.
Tomorrow isn’t much better on the scope either as I’ve got to shampoo the carpet downstairs (no that is not a euphemism for anything, it is literal) and have an appointment with the sleep clinic in the afternoon after carpet cleaning to go over the results of both of my sleep tests. Yay. No rest for the wicked.
Oh well. I’ll make it through. Can’t seem to help it.
That was after the session. This one was a joint session with Rak and myself. It was productive. Hard, but productive. I showed a bit of what I am inside, which seemed to frighten everyone in the room a bit. There’s a deep, dark place that I tend to keep well locked-down under most circumstances and I gave just a glimpse, a reflection of its shadow, and that was enough to provoke quite the reaction. It did, however, seem to let them know (or at least have some idea of) what I feel and what I am inside. There really is nobody else out there like me and it is a very lonely and frustrating situation.
Maybe I’m just insane.
Broke up my sleep pattern because of the session, cleaning, and other things that needed to be taken care of so I’m quite tired now. Good thing for me I don’t have a very strenuous job. Getting all the way through the night will be entertaining.
Tomorrow isn’t much better on the scope either as I’ve got to shampoo the carpet downstairs (no that is not a euphemism for anything, it is literal) and have an appointment with the sleep clinic in the afternoon after carpet cleaning to go over the results of both of my sleep tests. Yay. No rest for the wicked.
Oh well. I’ll make it through. Can’t seem to help it.