Hi, welcome to life. You lose.
I'm lost as to what the fuck I'm going to do at this point. As soon as I get finished with one bigass problem with my parents and school, a HUGE, make that a world ending cataclysm of a problem comes and sits it's ass on my head. I don't have any control over this and it's fucking killing me inside. And for the rest of my life, this is going to kill me and anything I ever thought that I wanted or was going to be.
I don't ever want to hurt anyone really. I'm always the one who wants everyone to get along as much as possible really. But now, I'm breaking down. I can't juggle problems like these left and right. There really isn't any way for me to fix them or to get away.
For once in my life, I don't have a want to go anywhere. I don't want to buy things. I don't want to do anything in particular, except crawl into a dark secluded corner and just die.
I can't talk to my parents about anything, I never really have and I don't think they'd be much help to me. I can't talk with Alicia's parents because I'm still kind of uncomfortable around them and after today, I know they fucking hate me. I don't know what to say anymore to others to try and help them with their problems; something I've almost always had a knack for.
WHY does this have to happen now? Just why
I don't ever want to hurt anyone really. I'm always the one who wants everyone to get along as much as possible really. But now, I'm breaking down. I can't juggle problems like these left and right. There really isn't any way for me to fix them or to get away.
For once in my life, I don't have a want to go anywhere. I don't want to buy things. I don't want to do anything in particular, except crawl into a dark secluded corner and just die.
I can't talk to my parents about anything, I never really have and I don't think they'd be much help to me. I can't talk with Alicia's parents because I'm still kind of uncomfortable around them and after today, I know they fucking hate me. I don't know what to say anymore to others to try and help them with their problems; something I've almost always had a knack for.
WHY does this have to happen now? Just why