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Sometimes i can be so bloody ungrateful. I hadn't realised it until now.
I'm like an excited child at christmas hoping for that one ultimate gift the present that they've been wanting all year, the whole of christmas has been leading up to this moment, will they get it or not? But once its unwrapped and the initial excitement is over, once they can relax safe in the knowledge that it's theirs they are already looking to see whats next.
Sometimes i forget that i suddenly have that which i've been longing for for as long as i can remember. This has been my dream for so long and i just haven't taken the time to appreciate it. By the time i was settled, new job, new home, new county, new outlook, i was already thinking about what comes next and although perhaps that isn't such a bad thing i've been so consumed with the next step in my life i'd forgotten to note to myself the difference in my quality of life, i'm already taking it for granted.
I'm so very angry with myself.
So this morning i sat back and thought about what i've acquired recently... New flat with all my things just where i want them, no more living with parents, out of essex, by the sea, with my boy, new job, better money, more job satisfaction, motivation to achieve goals beyond current job.
Bloody hell i'm one lucky Girl.
I'm like an excited child at christmas hoping for that one ultimate gift the present that they've been wanting all year, the whole of christmas has been leading up to this moment, will they get it or not? But once its unwrapped and the initial excitement is over, once they can relax safe in the knowledge that it's theirs they are already looking to see whats next.
Sometimes i forget that i suddenly have that which i've been longing for for as long as i can remember. This has been my dream for so long and i just haven't taken the time to appreciate it. By the time i was settled, new job, new home, new county, new outlook, i was already thinking about what comes next and although perhaps that isn't such a bad thing i've been so consumed with the next step in my life i'd forgotten to note to myself the difference in my quality of life, i'm already taking it for granted.
I'm so very angry with myself.
So this morning i sat back and thought about what i've acquired recently... New flat with all my things just where i want them, no more living with parents, out of essex, by the sea, with my boy, new job, better money, more job satisfaction, motivation to achieve goals beyond current job.
Bloody hell i'm one lucky Girl.