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WHY DO YOU THINK I AM HAPPY? I HAVENT BEEN REMOTELY HAPPY SINCE YOUVE LEFT ME. THESE ARE THE WORST DAMN DAYS OF MY LIFE. YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME, AS DO I FOR YOU.
So please, tell me why this hurts you so much if you feel the same way. Tell me how University is going to be easier with someone else if you dont want to be with anyone at all. This is killing me because I know the choice I'm going to have to make is going to hurt you, but that does not mean that these feelings are out of guilt. I don't know what to say or do, I just know my body cant take much more of this. Things I do know, we've made eachother happy before, we used to communicate and fix things, and one day we stopped communicating. You don't know how to help me through my problems, and I don't know how to help you through yours, but I'm willing to learn to do this right. Yes, I have a crush on her, but I do not love her. Your the only person who made me feel that feeling, what feeling was it? I hope it was love. You have a crush on him, and I can understand that. The amount of weight this is causing, my shoulders are going to break. I need to know whats going on in your head. Maybe it isnt even a crush I have on her, but a friendship I wish to cherish. I can tell you whatever it is you want to know, so please tell me what I need to know.
So please, tell me why this hurts you so much if you feel the same way. Tell me how University is going to be easier with someone else if you dont want to be with anyone at all. This is killing me because I know the choice I'm going to have to make is going to hurt you, but that does not mean that these feelings are out of guilt. I don't know what to say or do, I just know my body cant take much more of this. Things I do know, we've made eachother happy before, we used to communicate and fix things, and one day we stopped communicating. You don't know how to help me through my problems, and I don't know how to help you through yours, but I'm willing to learn to do this right. Yes, I have a crush on her, but I do not love her. Your the only person who made me feel that feeling, what feeling was it? I hope it was love. You have a crush on him, and I can understand that. The amount of weight this is causing, my shoulders are going to break. I need to know whats going on in your head. Maybe it isnt even a crush I have on her, but a friendship I wish to cherish. I can tell you whatever it is you want to know, so please tell me what I need to know.