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tired of keeping secrets for people. im put in these situations where i know this, or that and it would hurt a friend. personally not knowing doesnt hurt hurt. i can think back to plenty of times a friend told me this something fucking terrible and they say "im your friend, and if i were you i would want to know". then they tell me this horrible shit and it upsets me so fucking bad. and i think, why? why would i want to know this, i didnt NEED to know this.
im keeping my mouth shut. because what i know. will not help the people to tell. just make them upset. i wish people would return the courtesy to me.
i also have so much emotional things going on. i want to follow my heart. but i have no idea where and what my heart wants. for once its not about my family or me personally. its about loving someone for a very long time and having that person tell me all the things they've always felt and finding out we've felt have been the same. no reads this so i can say what i want i guess.
im keeping my mouth shut. because what i know. will not help the people to tell. just make them upset. i wish people would return the courtesy to me.
i also have so much emotional things going on. i want to follow my heart. but i have no idea where and what my heart wants. for once its not about my family or me personally. its about loving someone for a very long time and having that person tell me all the things they've always felt and finding out we've felt have been the same. no reads this so i can say what i want i guess.