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i'm sick. i have strep throat, my tonsils feel like water balloons..i'm not at work, i'm losing money...the piddly little paychecks are never going to go away....
and i feel like all the impending sorrows in life are riding on my shoulders. i think they call this depression. or maybe i'm just thinking too much. i think about all the people that i love, and the fact that eventually, they won't be in my life anymore... i'm thinking about what happens when i die, because of these beliefs that i can't shake..and it causes this fear..
and my throat hurts. and i had to cancel a guitar lesson because of it.
today sucks.
and i feel like all the impending sorrows in life are riding on my shoulders. i think they call this depression. or maybe i'm just thinking too much. i think about all the people that i love, and the fact that eventually, they won't be in my life anymore... i'm thinking about what happens when i die, because of these beliefs that i can't shake..and it causes this fear..
and my throat hurts. and i had to cancel a guitar lesson because of it.
today sucks.