fuck
ssoooooooooooooo...i dont really know what to say...it seems like everything i thought i knew has changed...it just seems like so much was done behind my back...am i really that dumb???
i think im getting another place again...only i think im gonna live on my own...prolly new port richey...closer to my job...i just wanna get out of this place...im so tired of being lied to and decieved...im so tired of trying so hard to do good things...and only get bad rewards...im starting to think my life will always suck...regardless of if im doing a bunch of drugs and parting all the time or not...the only difference between the two is ill die faster choosing to live one way over the other...but i really dont even care anymore...im begining to gain my old beliefs back...i mean what is the point of living healthy and all that gay shit...i could die tommorrow in a car accident and the past 2 months of sobriety would be for nothing...im gonna die when im gonna die...u cant run from it...so why try...JUST HAVE FUN, THATS WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT!!!!!!
i think im getting another place again...only i think im gonna live on my own...prolly new port richey...closer to my job...i just wanna get out of this place...im so tired of being lied to and decieved...im so tired of trying so hard to do good things...and only get bad rewards...im starting to think my life will always suck...regardless of if im doing a bunch of drugs and parting all the time or not...the only difference between the two is ill die faster choosing to live one way over the other...but i really dont even care anymore...im begining to gain my old beliefs back...i mean what is the point of living healthy and all that gay shit...i could die tommorrow in a car accident and the past 2 months of sobriety would be for nothing...im gonna die when im gonna die...u cant run from it...so why try...JUST HAVE FUN, THATS WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT!!!!!!