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Ahh..
I have like a problem with like love or relationshipz or sumething. I want people to like me alot, they're people who do but those people i dunt even like.( But kevins my best friend!!!) I want a bf....goshhhh, i like this one guy. i met him first. My friend "hooked us up" at tacobell after the movies..lol And then we got to know eachother more.. nd now he likes the fuken worst person in tha world. HE likes 3 people nd one including me....gosh i am pist at myslef. and i feel az if im not good enough. We talk like were together and then i see him as if hes a stranger...Its soo hard 2 explain wtf im fucken feeling..Why isnt there any perfect guys!!!!!!!I wish there was. I was always tha gurl out of all they're hot friendz hoo wasnt hot. people tell me im hott or pretty but maybe its b/c they want to be nice....I dunno, im like sooo confused. If i ever have a b/f...i know i cant stick with him for long... everyone knoes im a flirtass. But i kinda want a serious one... A person i want to be with forever nd like i no i cant let go... It kinda reminds me of Michael M. i freekn love you Michael. Its all my fault everything went downhill... And i regret every single thing. (i remember i would alway sleave little notes one you art binder, nd send u letters between classes)...
I always watch shows nd theiers always like teens kissing nd like all these couples.. nd it makes me pist off nd gross...im going on a hnt for the perfect guy.....hopefully hes sumwhere out there...
jenny*