Good God, she's posting!
Here I am, at work with nothing to do, yet again. It seems as though I don't have a lot to do with this job except do a bit of filing every once in a while, answer a few phone calls, and write a schedule, which takes all of about 10 minutes total. After it's all over, I really just want to go home and kick back and relax, but unfortunately, I can't leave until 1:30. It's only about 2 1/2 hours left, so I'll be OK.
Again, as I have stated before, I should keep a journal and update it more often. Perhaps this will cut down on the temper problem that's been going on since...well forever, really. I've just become so frustrated recently, and it seems as though I take it out on Jayson. All the time. It's gotten to the point where he's lost his patience with me, and when he brought that to my attention, it stung so bad. I tell myself that we need to stop arguing, but it's really just me that needs to stop yelling.
Don't get me wrong, I don't yell at every little thing that we disagree on, but more so the things that I myself have lost my own patience with. Most of it having to do with Jayson. With him most likely not having a job by July, the stress mounts up tremendously. I know that it's been hard for him, believe me. My frustration stems from the fact that every time I see him or ask him if he's applied for anything new, he's sitting on his butt, playing on the X-Box. Either that, or his answer is "I forgot" and then goes back to whatever he was doing in the first place. Do you see where I'm coming from? This has been going on since about February, which he should have been doing since about November.
I've lost my own patience with the fact that every time I give him an idea to apply for somewhere, he forgets, and it comes off as being blown off. He's gotten better at it, but it seems as though he doesn't really get the fact that it's not just about him anymore, it's about both of us now. We are moving in together once he gets a job and my lease is up in July, which means I need to find an apartment around May or June. If he doesn't have a job by the time that my lease is up, guess who's going to be paying for the apartment? Me, of course. Again, if he also gets laid off, I'm going to have to pay the phone bill by myself. Not that it's a big deal, but that doesn't leave me with much for gas, groceries, utilities, and emergencies. It's getting really frustrating, especially since he currently only works 2 days a week and spends the rest of the week, where else? The X-Box. This is where the temper starts to kick in.
It probably doesn't help that, according to my doctor, I have high blood pressure, and need to start getting it down. I also have to loose 10 pounds and start exercising more, meaning less food in my stomach, meaning I'm going to be more hungry more often. Do I get to eat any burgers? Not until I get to fucking Florida, in 4 months.
By the way, I do love Jayson, very much, in fact. He's just frustrating right now, and people who don't hire him are assholes.
For fuck's sake, someone give him a job so everything can go back to normal again!
Again, as I have stated before, I should keep a journal and update it more often. Perhaps this will cut down on the temper problem that's been going on since...well forever, really. I've just become so frustrated recently, and it seems as though I take it out on Jayson. All the time. It's gotten to the point where he's lost his patience with me, and when he brought that to my attention, it stung so bad. I tell myself that we need to stop arguing, but it's really just me that needs to stop yelling.
Don't get me wrong, I don't yell at every little thing that we disagree on, but more so the things that I myself have lost my own patience with. Most of it having to do with Jayson. With him most likely not having a job by July, the stress mounts up tremendously. I know that it's been hard for him, believe me. My frustration stems from the fact that every time I see him or ask him if he's applied for anything new, he's sitting on his butt, playing on the X-Box. Either that, or his answer is "I forgot" and then goes back to whatever he was doing in the first place. Do you see where I'm coming from? This has been going on since about February, which he should have been doing since about November.
I've lost my own patience with the fact that every time I give him an idea to apply for somewhere, he forgets, and it comes off as being blown off. He's gotten better at it, but it seems as though he doesn't really get the fact that it's not just about him anymore, it's about both of us now. We are moving in together once he gets a job and my lease is up in July, which means I need to find an apartment around May or June. If he doesn't have a job by the time that my lease is up, guess who's going to be paying for the apartment? Me, of course. Again, if he also gets laid off, I'm going to have to pay the phone bill by myself. Not that it's a big deal, but that doesn't leave me with much for gas, groceries, utilities, and emergencies. It's getting really frustrating, especially since he currently only works 2 days a week and spends the rest of the week, where else? The X-Box. This is where the temper starts to kick in.
It probably doesn't help that, according to my doctor, I have high blood pressure, and need to start getting it down. I also have to loose 10 pounds and start exercising more, meaning less food in my stomach, meaning I'm going to be more hungry more often. Do I get to eat any burgers? Not until I get to fucking Florida, in 4 months.
By the way, I do love Jayson, very much, in fact. He's just frustrating right now, and people who don't hire him are assholes.
For fuck's sake, someone give him a job so everything can go back to normal again!