prom

[stepout0thedark]

its prom night and all i wanna do is curl up in a ball and disappear....i dont wanna go i dont wanna leave my house. nothing is gonna work out i can already feel it. and i dont mean with prom i mean with everything in my life. nothing is going to end up "ok" its gonna be shit...i should just move to the city with my mom. leave all this behind. leave behind all the trends, the trend setters, the posers, te bashers, the preps, the whores, leave behind faint memories and fake friends, leave behind the stress and drama. leave behind the rumors, the stories, the bets, leave behind the gossip and the back stabbing, leave behind these towns and schools, leave it all here and run....sometimes i really wonder if thats the only way out of all this. i dont know how to deal with it all anymore....its getting to be too much. i cant stand hearing new rumors, or the latest bet on my love life, i cant stand the threats, the back stabbing, the abandonment, i cant stand the cold shoulders, or the lies...i dont wanna see it, hear it, feel it, or know about it. i wanna be oblivious to it all. i wanna be blissful and happy, i wanna be invisable again.

and if who ever the fuck is starting those bets about me is reading this...you better bet i'll find out who the fuck you are.