things are looking up for stephannie
last night. me and cam were supposed to go to a screening of final destination so i drove all the way downtown, and it's full. bummer. what a lousy date i am...we went for starbucks instead and enjoy it next to the martin luther kind jr. memorial fountain. it was quit romantic with the view of the tall buildings all lit up. turned out to be a better date than i thought.
on our way home, ms. tara pratt called and told me to come over. i did. ended up getting drunk off of 3 beers and a bunch of pot...and then they pulled out the kareoke machine. i've never enjoyed singing 'hit me with yr best shot' in my life. although there were 2 guys there, one is andre, and he is gay. the other... well singing nsyncs bye bye bye, he was pretty much gay haha, and the rest. us 5 girls....it was just really good hanging out with girls. i wasn't thinking about anything, but kareoke, and having fun. it was really good for me. so i think i need to hang out with trish and tara more often. they make me realize that i need to just do and say what i feel. even if people think that i am crazy. trish just goes for it. her jokes and raps about zoo animals. i mean c'mon...'i said i wanna see the koala bears...but it's 44444 3000 and they are all insideeeee' like wtf. hella funny shit. and her rapping kareoke songs, not meant to be rapped... i'm going to act on instinct instead of thinking if i should or shouldn't do something. i just want to be able to have fun again...like 2 summers ago, when i felt normal and didn't think so much. haha. thinking fucks with yr head.
speaking of thinking....i'm not thinking of howie. or ross. the only two i care to talk to. the others can fuck off. ross is my friend. and even though he was a douche. he has problems. and i know this. so i forgive him. but we were friends to begin with, and we are going to stay friends. i mean i have him in my 11 oclock class today. speaking of i have to leave in 8 minutes... and howie. seems like a really nice, awesome guy, and i would like to be his friend... he said that he is into me, and i wish that he hadn't.. i didn't want anything to get in the way of me just acting like his friend...and even though it has.. i'm not going to expect anything or think anything is going to happen. that is where i get down. over guys. i let it affect me too much. it's lameeeeeo. so yah. i'm not going to expect anything. howie is going to popscene tonight too. so i'll see him. and dance with him. from there who knows. i like not knowing. fuck planning..
i don't know exaactly what i just said. oh well.
2-14. james's birthday party in santa cruz. i'm stoked. i have been wanting to go to sc for a while, and see jameseypoo. and johnny is going to be there so it will be nice seeing him too. old faces. i love old faces.
well school calls. have a nice dayyyy.
it's supposed to be 75 in sf. too bad it is only 55 right now and i am skirtin it up.
amelia. you should go to james's thing too!! it'll be like old times.
on our way home, ms. tara pratt called and told me to come over. i did. ended up getting drunk off of 3 beers and a bunch of pot...and then they pulled out the kareoke machine. i've never enjoyed singing 'hit me with yr best shot' in my life. although there were 2 guys there, one is andre, and he is gay. the other... well singing nsyncs bye bye bye, he was pretty much gay haha, and the rest. us 5 girls....it was just really good hanging out with girls. i wasn't thinking about anything, but kareoke, and having fun. it was really good for me. so i think i need to hang out with trish and tara more often. they make me realize that i need to just do and say what i feel. even if people think that i am crazy. trish just goes for it. her jokes and raps about zoo animals. i mean c'mon...'i said i wanna see the koala bears...but it's 44444 3000 and they are all insideeeee' like wtf. hella funny shit. and her rapping kareoke songs, not meant to be rapped... i'm going to act on instinct instead of thinking if i should or shouldn't do something. i just want to be able to have fun again...like 2 summers ago, when i felt normal and didn't think so much. haha. thinking fucks with yr head.
speaking of thinking....i'm not thinking of howie. or ross. the only two i care to talk to. the others can fuck off. ross is my friend. and even though he was a douche. he has problems. and i know this. so i forgive him. but we were friends to begin with, and we are going to stay friends. i mean i have him in my 11 oclock class today. speaking of i have to leave in 8 minutes... and howie. seems like a really nice, awesome guy, and i would like to be his friend... he said that he is into me, and i wish that he hadn't.. i didn't want anything to get in the way of me just acting like his friend...and even though it has.. i'm not going to expect anything or think anything is going to happen. that is where i get down. over guys. i let it affect me too much. it's lameeeeeo. so yah. i'm not going to expect anything. howie is going to popscene tonight too. so i'll see him. and dance with him. from there who knows. i like not knowing. fuck planning..
i don't know exaactly what i just said. oh well.
2-14. james's birthday party in santa cruz. i'm stoked. i have been wanting to go to sc for a while, and see jameseypoo. and johnny is going to be there so it will be nice seeing him too. old faces. i love old faces.
well school calls. have a nice dayyyy.
it's supposed to be 75 in sf. too bad it is only 55 right now and i am skirtin it up.
amelia. you should go to james's thing too!! it'll be like old times.