fuckin BORED
i am at Jeremys today... i dono why im so damn cranky... poor guy... im so BORED... i wanna do something... but hes gotta work tonight so we cant... were goin to my dads house on sunday for the superbowl... i'll prolly sleep there...
Jeremys making lunch... thats good b/c im starving... im gonna try to loose weight... HA not... i dont care anymore... i know Jeremy wants me to... but fuck it, im not FAT im a lil chunky... and he will survive... he wants to see me in a bikini this summer... and i wouldnt anyways... i got TONS of stretch marks... i look like a fuckin zebra... i wore a 2 piece when i was pregnant... but it was a tank top for a top... i may not even wear shorts this summer.. im not a person who dont care about their weight... im just not gonna waste time loosing it...
lol... Jeremy walked over and read the screen... rubbed my back quickly and said... ur wearin a 2 piece... skrew it... i might buy 1 for him... and than wear a t shirt so no 1 dies when the see me... i mean... i would be so embarrased... i am not FAT i got stretch marks... and a lil chunk on my tummy... but most of the crap is stretched out skin... lmao... and that wont go away... oh well... havin a baby at a young age ruins your tanning fun... but i mean hell... the baby will be in the pool this year every fricken day! in a little floatie... with mommy and daddy! the pool is getting a lock on it for safety...
Jeremy is talking about his first birthday... were gonna have a party here... a pool party... woo hoo! bust out the keg!! haha... no j/k no keg... DUH... Christopher is WAY to young, i mean... he can barely handle formula!...
i think its funny... sara goes through everything i do... the whole man wanting sex and the baby stuff... i didnt think any 1 knew what i was goin through... but HA... i am not insane... other ppl have these problems too...
well... i dont have anything else to say... im tired, and wanna cuddle... so i think im gonna go sit on Jeremys lap and rest while christopher sleeps... i love em both... but i love to cuddle with Jeremy, and its hard when the babys awake... so buh bye...
well... that didnt last long... i went into the living room... and Jeremy sat there watching tv... ya know... he always asks me to help him with shit... and when i try to help he treats me like shit... fuck this... he can do it all on his own... i am not giving him advice anymore... he treats me like im stupid so i will act stupid... i TOLD him and his dad his starter was going... his dad yelled at me and told me i didnt know what was going on...well it WAS the starter and than about taxes... he said unless he was 25 he couldnt collect for the baby... i told him he could... oh gosh... his dad messed up and i was right AGAIN... im done... fuck this... i realize now... relationships are pointless... now he asks me if its over... and gets mad... well stop readin over my fuckin shoulder... i gotta go.... hes makin me get off... i wanna go home.... but thats not gonna happen... im gonna get bitched at...
Jeremys making lunch... thats good b/c im starving... im gonna try to loose weight... HA not... i dont care anymore... i know Jeremy wants me to... but fuck it, im not FAT im a lil chunky... and he will survive... he wants to see me in a bikini this summer... and i wouldnt anyways... i got TONS of stretch marks... i look like a fuckin zebra... i wore a 2 piece when i was pregnant... but it was a tank top for a top... i may not even wear shorts this summer.. im not a person who dont care about their weight... im just not gonna waste time loosing it...
lol... Jeremy walked over and read the screen... rubbed my back quickly and said... ur wearin a 2 piece... skrew it... i might buy 1 for him... and than wear a t shirt so no 1 dies when the see me... i mean... i would be so embarrased... i am not FAT i got stretch marks... and a lil chunk on my tummy... but most of the crap is stretched out skin... lmao... and that wont go away... oh well... havin a baby at a young age ruins your tanning fun... but i mean hell... the baby will be in the pool this year every fricken day! in a little floatie... with mommy and daddy! the pool is getting a lock on it for safety...
Jeremy is talking about his first birthday... were gonna have a party here... a pool party... woo hoo! bust out the keg!! haha... no j/k no keg... DUH... Christopher is WAY to young, i mean... he can barely handle formula!...
i think its funny... sara goes through everything i do... the whole man wanting sex and the baby stuff... i didnt think any 1 knew what i was goin through... but HA... i am not insane... other ppl have these problems too...
well... i dont have anything else to say... im tired, and wanna cuddle... so i think im gonna go sit on Jeremys lap and rest while christopher sleeps... i love em both... but i love to cuddle with Jeremy, and its hard when the babys awake... so buh bye...
well... that didnt last long... i went into the living room... and Jeremy sat there watching tv... ya know... he always asks me to help him with shit... and when i try to help he treats me like shit... fuck this... he can do it all on his own... i am not giving him advice anymore... he treats me like im stupid so i will act stupid... i TOLD him and his dad his starter was going... his dad yelled at me and told me i didnt know what was going on...well it WAS the starter and than about taxes... he said unless he was 25 he couldnt collect for the baby... i told him he could... oh gosh... his dad messed up and i was right AGAIN... im done... fuck this... i realize now... relationships are pointless... now he asks me if its over... and gets mad... well stop readin over my fuckin shoulder... i gotta go.... hes makin me get off... i wanna go home.... but thats not gonna happen... im gonna get bitched at...