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Well guys, this will be my last live journal entry.
I don't like you any more lj. LOL. Anyway... I am leaving for school in one week exactly. I am so freaking excited and I am so much more prepared this year then I was last year. I have faith, and I am going to prove to everyone who thought this was a bad idea that they were wrong. Thats for sure.
I learned a lot this summer. I learned a lot about myself and a lot about other people. I learned a lot about loyalty, family, and being true to yourself and other people also. I am sad about this summer, but I don't think that I regret it. I just found out earlier then others, the true colors of those around me. and.. I don't need that shit anymore. There were people who wrote off friendships for their own personal reasons, some who did it just to follow what everyone else was doing, and some didnt even KNOW why they were mad at me, but decided that being around one of their best friends made them feel "uncomfortable" and ya know what.. thats okay.
BECASUE THIS SUMMER I FOUND OUT THAT I. DONT. NEED. THEM.
Maybe this distance away from them, and them away from me will make everything better in the long run. Maybe I will come back for Christmas break and we will all get together and do stupid shit, and laugh the whole night over what people put in as their "I bet you didnt know this about me" papers in that game. And I really hope that happens, but.. it may not. But whatever happens I have to know that change is going to happen, they will change, i will change and I can't DO ANYTHING ABOUT THAT ANYMORE. Thats one thing I have to grasp.
I do want to thank those of you who weren't fake this summer, who let me know who true friends are. Cause thats what kept me from losing it every day when I thought that I would. So thanks.
Also, I am not mad at those people anymore, so don't think this is an entry of hatred. I am just sad for them, and I am sad for me because we all used to have some kick ass friendships that in my mind, I thought, would NEVER end.
So to close, I am happy. I am starting over and this is wicked exciting and new and scary but like.. a roller coaster scary, like when you get off the roller coaster you were like yay that was fun lets go again scary. It's pretty cool. And I am going cowboy boot shopping with Brad and his friends when I go out there next week so thats fun also. Yay... maybe I'll come back with an accent?? haha. yah.. right.
Bye!
........I'm Movin On.........
Oh and also, some things that will NEVER change about me:
I will always say WICKED
I will always love country music AND rascal flatts
I will always be affraid of throw-up
I will always scream sing to You Can't Fight the Beat, Celine Dion,and Bohemian Rhapsody
I will always be taking pictures all the freaking time
***I will ALWAYS love you guys. Always.***
I don't like you any more lj. LOL. Anyway... I am leaving for school in one week exactly. I am so freaking excited and I am so much more prepared this year then I was last year. I have faith, and I am going to prove to everyone who thought this was a bad idea that they were wrong. Thats for sure.
I learned a lot this summer. I learned a lot about myself and a lot about other people. I learned a lot about loyalty, family, and being true to yourself and other people also. I am sad about this summer, but I don't think that I regret it. I just found out earlier then others, the true colors of those around me. and.. I don't need that shit anymore. There were people who wrote off friendships for their own personal reasons, some who did it just to follow what everyone else was doing, and some didnt even KNOW why they were mad at me, but decided that being around one of their best friends made them feel "uncomfortable" and ya know what.. thats okay.
BECASUE THIS SUMMER I FOUND OUT THAT I. DONT. NEED. THEM.
Maybe this distance away from them, and them away from me will make everything better in the long run. Maybe I will come back for Christmas break and we will all get together and do stupid shit, and laugh the whole night over what people put in as their "I bet you didnt know this about me" papers in that game. And I really hope that happens, but.. it may not. But whatever happens I have to know that change is going to happen, they will change, i will change and I can't DO ANYTHING ABOUT THAT ANYMORE. Thats one thing I have to grasp.
I do want to thank those of you who weren't fake this summer, who let me know who true friends are. Cause thats what kept me from losing it every day when I thought that I would. So thanks.
Also, I am not mad at those people anymore, so don't think this is an entry of hatred. I am just sad for them, and I am sad for me because we all used to have some kick ass friendships that in my mind, I thought, would NEVER end.
So to close, I am happy. I am starting over and this is wicked exciting and new and scary but like.. a roller coaster scary, like when you get off the roller coaster you were like yay that was fun lets go again scary. It's pretty cool. And I am going cowboy boot shopping with Brad and his friends when I go out there next week so thats fun also. Yay... maybe I'll come back with an accent?? haha. yah.. right.
Bye!
........I'm Movin On.........
Oh and also, some things that will NEVER change about me:
I will always say WICKED
I will always love country music AND rascal flatts
I will always be affraid of throw-up
I will always scream sing to You Can't Fight the Beat, Celine Dion,and Bohemian Rhapsody
I will always be taking pictures all the freaking time
***I will ALWAYS love you guys. Always.***