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recently I have been having moments in my day/night where I realize that I am so happy. It happened at Meghan's party, durring our tour day for easter seals and when teeny corey nic pic and I made dinner. I think it is the best thing on earth. My summer could not be going any better. Woah, that was SUCH a lie... but with most of my friends it is perfect. I am so happy I am spending a lot of time with Corey, Teeny, Goosey and Nic Pic to name a few. Also got to see Pricilla, Jenn, Anna Flana and others recently and that was wicked fun. I think my dog peed under my chair and I just put my foot in it. Oh gross.
I am wicked annoyed/hurt by many things/people a lot these days too. Most of the people are ones that I absolutly should NOT be hurt by..but.. HELLO. Feeling like shit about myself comes as a daily occurance and no, it isn't just that one person who does it. Thanks.
I got a 150 dollar check today weww heww...
Today swimming in Nicks pool fully clothed was SO much fun yay.. many more days like that better happen.
I have also decided tonight that I am giving up completely on a "friendship" and I don't really care. It also wont do much to weaken/strengthen what we have because I am just not that important.... I can't compete for attention anymore.. I am 19 years old... fuck it. I am not the funniest like Meghan or the hottest like Teeny or the most musically passionate like Corey but fuck you all, I am who I am and just cause I don't have a super-personality doesnt mean you should treat me any less or whatever..
What am I talking about... I am just getting pissed hahah hi.
Oh whatever and I just realized that camp for the weekend wont work cause of the country concert that the four of us were suppose to go to.. but.. is that even happening? I don't care any more, I would most likely feel better as a person not being with that group. SAAAWEET.
Wish I could write what I am REALLY feeling but when I try it sounds bitter and stupid like alwyas cause I am bitter and dtupid...
OMG I need to go to bed WITE NOW... Priestins is picking me up for the gym in like 7 hours.
I also need a car WITE NOW. I love my life.
.. I really do actually I just HATE not having a mode of transportation EVER.
Thanks for not understanding me/this/everythign. Goodnight
I love my friends, and I love summer, and I love us.
I am wicked annoyed/hurt by many things/people a lot these days too. Most of the people are ones that I absolutly should NOT be hurt by..but.. HELLO. Feeling like shit about myself comes as a daily occurance and no, it isn't just that one person who does it. Thanks.
I got a 150 dollar check today weww heww...
Today swimming in Nicks pool fully clothed was SO much fun yay.. many more days like that better happen.
I have also decided tonight that I am giving up completely on a "friendship" and I don't really care. It also wont do much to weaken/strengthen what we have because I am just not that important.... I can't compete for attention anymore.. I am 19 years old... fuck it. I am not the funniest like Meghan or the hottest like Teeny or the most musically passionate like Corey but fuck you all, I am who I am and just cause I don't have a super-personality doesnt mean you should treat me any less or whatever..
What am I talking about... I am just getting pissed hahah hi.
Oh whatever and I just realized that camp for the weekend wont work cause of the country concert that the four of us were suppose to go to.. but.. is that even happening? I don't care any more, I would most likely feel better as a person not being with that group. SAAAWEET.
Wish I could write what I am REALLY feeling but when I try it sounds bitter and stupid like alwyas cause I am bitter and dtupid...
OMG I need to go to bed WITE NOW... Priestins is picking me up for the gym in like 7 hours.
I also need a car WITE NOW. I love my life.
.. I really do actually I just HATE not having a mode of transportation EVER.
Thanks for not understanding me/this/everythign. Goodnight
I love my friends, and I love summer, and I love us.