lazy hazy crazy days of summer
Summer is nearing its end. It is sad and it is true. I mean, technically it doesnt end till like Sept 21 or 22 and i dont even start classes till sept 28 or 29. But it is coming to a close. Good friends have gone back to college, the days are shorter, the beaches slightly more empty. And the vacation I have dreamed of for the past 6 years is going to be here in ONE week. I started couting down the days till this vacation at day 183. now it is like day 8. when I began counting down the days I had a boyfriend who would be accompanying me on vacation. Now it is just me. And i am sad. Im sure my brother and his girlfriend will chill with me but it would have been so cool for Nick to come with me. In the end he wouldnt have been able to come anyway, he starts his job while he would have been on vacation with me. But it is still sad.
I have done absolutely nothing today. I went to bed at like 1AM and got up at 1PM. I watched Greys Anatomy and made soup from scratch. I took a long bath and read the entire September issue of Real Simple. I myspaced for an hour. I talked to Nick for 5 minutes. I miss him :( no I miss him alot that gets more than one :( it gets like :(:(;(;(;(;(:(:(:(:(;(:( i threw in some crying sad faces for good measure. Yesturday Kelly brought him up while we were at Pike Place (bad move on her part) becuase I ended up going on and on about him and for the rest of the day he was all I could think abuot. But today is a better day. I think if I get into Western I will find a man there. or a boy. a boy-man?
My evening:
do nothing
do nothing
watch 2 episodes of Greys anatomy followed by
nothing
this would seem pathetic if there wasnt things that I should actually be out doing. But I am taking today off. I have put the Cell on silent, I am in my pajamas, I am exhuasted and I am diong nothing. ALL. DAY. LONG.
which means tommorrow I have to run all over town to make up for the errands I didnt get to today (ie: return movies at blockbuster, pay Express bill, return books at library). I really wanna hang out with Nick tommorow night. Im not going to ask him if he wants to though unless he calls or texts or something. He and I are just friends...just friends who have started talking every day sometimes 2 or more times a day like we did when we were going out...now and I need to respect his space. That and tomorrow is his very last day of class. and so long as he passes his final with a 2.0 or more (shouldnt be that hard...it is history 101 and he is a history major...dont ask how that happened) then he will be an offical graduate from the UW. Pretty big accomplishment! He will most likely need to celebrate by getting crazy drunk....but you know he could get crazy drunk with me so that way we couldnt be acountable for the actions we both want to take...
if I were still his girlfriend I would totally drive over and leave a good luck note under his door and have gotten him that killer present I saw at Pike Place for after he takes his test and I would even throw him a party. But I'm not and I am still trying to figure out where the line has been drawn and what is ok and what is just too far. All of the above are too far. I think maybe a text of good luck is ok but thats it. And if he wants to hang out then that is his call. I miss being his girlfriend but at the same time I don't.
I am tired. I feel like I did when I had mono. time to go do nothing all over again.
in other news I have designed my entire future house, wardrobe, and life. cept that in my future life I look stikenly like cindy crawford and my husband is a 6'3'' version of Nick Lachey. Oh well. doesnt hurt to dream
I have done absolutely nothing today. I went to bed at like 1AM and got up at 1PM. I watched Greys Anatomy and made soup from scratch. I took a long bath and read the entire September issue of Real Simple. I myspaced for an hour. I talked to Nick for 5 minutes. I miss him :( no I miss him alot that gets more than one :( it gets like :(:(;(;(;(;(:(:(:(:(;(:( i threw in some crying sad faces for good measure. Yesturday Kelly brought him up while we were at Pike Place (bad move on her part) becuase I ended up going on and on about him and for the rest of the day he was all I could think abuot. But today is a better day. I think if I get into Western I will find a man there. or a boy. a boy-man?
My evening:
do nothing
do nothing
watch 2 episodes of Greys anatomy followed by
nothing
this would seem pathetic if there wasnt things that I should actually be out doing. But I am taking today off. I have put the Cell on silent, I am in my pajamas, I am exhuasted and I am diong nothing. ALL. DAY. LONG.
which means tommorrow I have to run all over town to make up for the errands I didnt get to today (ie: return movies at blockbuster, pay Express bill, return books at library). I really wanna hang out with Nick tommorow night. Im not going to ask him if he wants to though unless he calls or texts or something. He and I are just friends...just friends who have started talking every day sometimes 2 or more times a day like we did when we were going out...now and I need to respect his space. That and tomorrow is his very last day of class. and so long as he passes his final with a 2.0 or more (shouldnt be that hard...it is history 101 and he is a history major...dont ask how that happened) then he will be an offical graduate from the UW. Pretty big accomplishment! He will most likely need to celebrate by getting crazy drunk....but you know he could get crazy drunk with me so that way we couldnt be acountable for the actions we both want to take...
if I were still his girlfriend I would totally drive over and leave a good luck note under his door and have gotten him that killer present I saw at Pike Place for after he takes his test and I would even throw him a party. But I'm not and I am still trying to figure out where the line has been drawn and what is ok and what is just too far. All of the above are too far. I think maybe a text of good luck is ok but thats it. And if he wants to hang out then that is his call. I miss being his girlfriend but at the same time I don't.
I am tired. I feel like I did when I had mono. time to go do nothing all over again.
in other news I have designed my entire future house, wardrobe, and life. cept that in my future life I look stikenly like cindy crawford and my husband is a 6'3'' version of Nick Lachey. Oh well. doesnt hurt to dream