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After work, I go as fast as I can to my house to pick up something for Gabriel, because he asked me to hurry up. I go to his house, give it to him, along with a mini cake from work & a brownie for his dad, sister & brother. He told me he'd write me a note, so as he hurries me up because his dad is asleep & he doens't want to wake him, he hand it to me. Walking to my car, I open it to see how long it is.
It's eleven letters.
It reads:
"Lo siento
T.Q.M" (which stands for Te quiero mucho)
I know that sounds like major bitching, but it's more like the straw that broke the camels back. When he asks me to write him a letter, It's at least an entire page, if not more. & everything's just been adding up & adding up..
Don't get me excited, if you're not going to deliver.
I'm not even going to give more examples, because I'm just going to forget about it, & keep going.
I can never decide though, should you just keep giving everything you have, when you're not getting it back? I always think no at first, but I would be a so much more unhappy if we both weren't giving it our all, then just one of us. I can't stop trying so hard, it's what I do when I love someone. & I'm not saying, at all, that he's not a good boyfriend. He's amazing. It's just that lately.. I don't know if it's asking too much.. but I need more. I need him to show me how much he loves me.
Anyway I've got to get up for work in six hours. That was my rant for the day. I feel better. ;)
Te amo Gabo. <3
[Edit: Survey time!]
Stolen from yaya_the_pixy
DESCRIBE YOUR..
(x) Wallet - pink kittie face
(x) Hairbrush - cheap blue bush my dad gave me :(
(x) Toothbrush - purple! Will be turned into a bracelet when I'm done!
(x) Jewelry worn daily - silver engagement ring, purple chunky watch, clear toothbrush bracelet
(x) Pillow cover - striped, black, red & blue on white
(x) Coffee Cup - don't drink it
() Sunglasses - blue
(x) Underwear - red thong with rhinestones on the front
(x) Favorite shirt - black with silver star on the front
(x) FAV. CD - at the moment.. Shakira's Dondé Estan Los Ladrones
( ) Tattoos - none
(x) Piercings - two in both ears
(x) Wishing - My schedule works out for uni..
(x) After this - I have to go to sleep so I can get up for work tomorrow..
(x) Is next to you - a little table.
(x) Something you’re looking forward to in the upcoming month - finishing full-time work, going back to part-time! YAY! /Buying school supplies. / Monthly anniversary.
(x) The last thing you ate - fries.
(x) Something that you are deathly afraid of - There's nothing I'm deathly afraid of.
(x) Do you like candles - They're alright.
(x) Do you like incense - Not really.
(x) Do you like the taste of blood - Nope.
(x) Do you believe in love - Yes.
(x) Do you believe in soulmates - No.
(x) Do you believe in love at first sight - No.
(x) Do you believe in Heaven - No.
(x) Do you believe in God - No.
(x) What do you want done with your body when you die - Cremated.
(x) Who is your worst enemy - I don't have one.
(x) If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - Kittie.
(x) What is the latest you’ve ever stayed up - Ever ever? I've not slept before.
(x) Can you eat with chopsticks - Yes, but not very well.
(x) What’s your favorite coin - twonie.
(x) What are some of your favorite animals - kitties, hamsters.
(x) Who is someone that you really wish was still around - Ange.