Sep 03, 2005 12:33
I GAVE YOU A "DIRTY LOOK" AND TALKED TO YOU IN A "MEAN VOICE" ARE YOU FUCKIN' KIDDING ME?! THAT'S THE BEST YOU CAN COME UP WITH? YOU'RE SAYING THIS SHIT JUST BECAUSE I ASKED "SINCE WHEN DO YOU WATCH THE GOLDEN GIRLS?" ARE YOU FUCKIN SERIOUSLY KIDDING ME? HOLY SHIT! I ASKED YOU BECAUSE YOU NORMALLY DON'T WATCH IT...SO FUCKIN' SUE ME FOR BEING SURPRISED THAT YOU'RE WATCHING A SHOW SUDDENLY...GOD DAMN
YOU'RE OBVIOUSLY JUST UPSET THAT I HAD A "SLEEP OVER" WITH PEOPLE WHO AREN'T YOU...FIRST OF ALL THY WANTED TO KNOW IF THEY COULD CRASH AT MY FUCKIN' HOUSE CAUSE THEY WERE GONNA GO AND GET DRUNK AND NONE OF THEM WANTED TO DEAL WITH THEIR PARENTS FUCKIN' BREAKING THEIR BALLS BECAUSE THEY WERE INTOXICATED, SO THEY ASKED ME IF THEY COULD SLEEP AT MY HOUSE AND I SAID SURE.
AS FOR YOUR COMMENT ABOUT SAYING "OH SORRY I DIDN'T KNOW I COULDN'T WATCH A SHOW WITHOUT YOU BEING THERE WITH ME"...WELL I COULD SAY THE SAME ABOUT THIS SITUATION...SORRY,I DIDN'T KNOW I COULDN'T HAVE OTHER FRIENDS OVER WHO AREN'T YOU OVER TO SLEEP AT MY HOUSE...YOU ASK WHERE YOUR INVITE WAS? LET ME ASK YOU THIS: WHERE WAS MY INVITATION WHEN YOU'RE OUT WITH THE GUYS? GOING TO THE MOVIES WITH THEM? GOING OUT TO EAT WITH THEM? HAVE YOU EVER CALLED? SO DO NOT ACT LIKE IM A BITCH FOR NOT "INVITING" YOU TO MY HOUSE TO SLEEP, BECAUSE YOU'RE OFF GOING PLACES WITHOUT ME TOO SO COME ON...YOU'RE ONE TO TALK.
AS FOR WHY I DIDN'T COME OUT AND SAY STRAIGHT OUT THE SHIT ABOUT YOU...BECAUSE THE SHIT THAT'S HAPPENING NOW IS EXACTLY WHY I KEPT MY FUCKIN' MOUTH SHUT ABOUT YOU...YOU'RE THE ONLY PERSON I HOLD ME TONGUE FOR BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT US TO FUCKIN' ARGUE AND DRIFT APART...BUT UNFOURTUNATLEY...EVERYTHING CAME OUT AT ONCE AND NOW EVERYTHING HAS GONE TO SHIT...
YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT QUESTION BUGGED ME? BULLSHIT...WHENEVER YOU FIND OUT ABOUT SOMEONE ASKING ME IF THEY'RE MAD AT ME, DO I OR DO I NOT TELL YOU I GET IRRITATED WITH THAT QUESTION? WHO CARES IF IM MAD AT SOMEONE OR NOT? FUCK, GET OVER IT.
I DIDN'T TELL YOU I DIDN'T WANNA TALK ABOUT WHAT WAS BOTHERING ME?! FUCK YEA I DID. WHEN YOU ASKED WHAT WAS BOTHERING ME, I SAID SUTFF...AND DIDN'T EMPHASIZE ON IT, DOES THAT OR DOES THAT NOT SOUND LIKE I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT? CAUSE TO ME IT DOES.
I KNOW YOU'RE JUST TRYING TO HELP, FUCK MAN, SOMETIMES YOU JUST DON'T WANT TO FUCKIN' TALK ABOUT ANYTHING...IF YOU WERE TO HAVE DONE THE SAME SHIT AS I DID, AND JUST LET YOU KNOW IM ANNOYED BUT NOT TELL YOU WHY, I WOULDN'T GO ON AND ON AND ON ABOUT WHY EVEN THOUGH IT WAS OBVIOUS I DIDN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT.
I TOLD YOU I WAS FRUSTRATED ABOUT THE FACT THAT LATELY EVERY LITTLE INSIGNIFICANT THING WAS PISSING ME OFF FOR NO GOD DAMN REASON, SO MUCH SO THAT I DID SOMETHING AS STUPID AS FUCKIN' BREAK MY FUCKIN' IPOD...AND ABOUT BEING UPSET ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO GO TO THE OTEP SHOW...YOU ASKED FOR REASONS AS TO WHY I WAS UPSET...AND I GAVE YOU 2...WAS THAT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU? OBVIOUSLY NOT.
GO OFF ON GABE? WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU FUCKIN' TALKING ABOUT. AS SOON AS YOU MENTIONED FRIDAY I KNEW THAT SHIT ABOUT MY EYES BEING RED WAS FUCKIN' GONNA COME UP...AND THE FIRST PERSON THAT CAME INTO MIND THAT WOULD TELL THE WHOLE GOD DAMN WORLD THAT I WAS "STONED" WAS GABE CAUSE HE'S THE FIRST PERSON THAT WASN'T GLORIA, JAC, AND JNET WHO SAW MY EYES LIKE THAT...I KNEW HE WAS GONNA TELL YOU I WAS STONED...I DIDN'T FUCKIN' GO OFF ON HIM...HOW THE FUCK DID I GO OFF ON HIM? JUST CAUSE I SAID "IF IT WAS GABE HE'S FULL OF IT?"...HOYL SHIT, HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I STARTED A SENTENCE LIKE THAT JOKINGLY? YOU'RE THE ONE THAT ASSUMED I WAS "GOING OFF" ON HIM.
I GET MAD AT PEOPLE FOR SMOKING POT? HA! LIKE WHO? I KNOW, LET ME GUESS...FRANKY...YEA I'VE SAID FRANKY WAS DUMB FOR SMOKING POT...YOU'VE FUCKIN' SEEN HIM AND HOW HE ACTS WHEN HE'S STONED. YOU THINK I LIKE SEEING HIM ACT THAT DUMB? WHO ELSE? THE ONLY PEOPLE I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH SMOKING POT ARE PEOPLE THAT FUCKIN' ARE ADDICTED TO IT...AS IN THEY HAVE TO HAVE IT, THEY SELL THEIR SHIT JUST TO HAVE ENOUGH CASH FOR A SACK...THEY CAN'T GO A FUCKIN' HOUR WITHOUT TAKING A HIT...THOSE ARE PEOPLE I FUCKIN' HAVE A PROBLEM WITH SO DO NOT ACT LIKE I LOOK DOWN UPON PEOPLE WHO RARELY DO IT...
YOU DON'T BELIEVE THAT MY FUCKIN' EYES WERE RED FROM BEING IN THE SUN?! DID YOU FUCKIN' SEE HOW RED I WAS ALL OVER? I AM NOT USE TO BEING OUT IN THE SUN FOR SO GOD DAMN LONG, AND EVEN MY EYES GOT FUCKIN' SUN BURNED...FUCK, AS SOON AS I WALKED IN THE DOOR TO MY HOUSE AFTER ROW DROPPED ME OFF AND HE SAW ME HE JOKINGLY ASKED IF I WAS HIGH AND I ASKED WHY AND HE SAID "CAUSE YOUR EYES ARE RED" AND I THOUGHT HE WAS FUCKIN' KIDDING...NO, I TOOK A SHOWER AND AS SOON AS I CAME OUT AND SAW THE MIRROR I SAW THAT THEY WERE BLOOD SHOT RED...I NEVER FUCKIN' TOLD GABE MY EYES WERE LIKE THAT FROM BEING IN THE FUCKIN' WATER...THE ONLY SHIT I TOLD HIM WAS "NO, IM NOT STONED, I WAS IN THE SUN ALL DAY TODAY" THAT'S ALL I FUCKIN' SAID TO HIM, SO IF HE TOLD YOU THAT SHIT, HE'S FUCKIN' WRONG, CAUSE I REMEMBER EXACTLY WHAT I TOLD HIM.
YOU'RE SURPRISED THAT I FUCKIN' GOT DEFENSIVE OVER YOU FUCKIN' CALLING ME A LIAR? WOW...I WONDER WHY I GOT SO FUCKIN' DEFENSIVE...SOMEONE CALLS YOU A FUCKIN' LIAR AND YOU KNOW YOU'RE NOT...WOULDN'T YOU BE JUST A TAAAAD BIT ANNOYED WITH THAT?
IM CALLING YOU STUPID AND IDIOTIC? WTF? YOU OBVIOUSLY FUCKIN' MISREAD WHAT I WROTE...SO BASICALLY YOU'RE PISSED OFF AT ME FOR NO FUCKIN' REASON...I WAS FUCKIN' SAYING THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO DEFEND MYSELF AGAINST YOU AND YOU NOT BELIEVING ME, THAT FUCKIN' SITUATION I FIND STUPID AND IDIOTIC...
THE SHIT ABOUT MALACHI AND YOU FUCKIN' DITCHING ME FOR HIM...FUCK YEA IT ANNOYED ME, BUT AS I'VE SAID BEFORE I HOLD MY TONGUE WITH YOU BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO FUCKIN' END UP ARGUING WITH YOU ABOUT THAT STUPID SHIT, AND I DIDN'T WANT TO FUCKIN' BRING HIM INTO ANYTHING...
YOU SAY IM PREACHING ABOUT THE WHOLE SMOKING POT THING...YET YOU'RE OFF PREACHING ABOUT HATING SAMANTHA AND IF I DO RECALL YOU WERE BITCHING ABOUT HOW STUPID SHE WAS FOR DITCHING MOE TO BE WITH FRODO AND HOW YOU'D NEVER DO THAT TO YOUR BEST FRIEND...YET YOU WERE OFF DOING THE SAME SHIT..
NO I DON'T THINK IM MAKING YOU FEEL BAD AT ALL, IT HAS NEVER BEEN MY INTENTION TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT OVER WORDS I SAY, NOR WILL I EVER FUCKIN' SAY SHIT SIMPLY TO MAKE YOU UPSET...YOU WERE GONNA SAY YOU WERE SORRY LIKE YOU USUALLY DO? WHAT THE FUCK?! LIKE YOU USUALLY DO? WHEN THE FUCK HAVE YOU EVER SAID YOU WERE SORRY TO ME? OTHER THAN LAST YEAR WHEN YOU THOUGHT I WAS SAYING SHIT ABOUT YOU AND WHAT'S HIS FACE...THAT'S THE ONLY TIME YOU'VE EVER TOLD ME YOU WERE SORRY BECAUSE WE BOTH FUCKIN' KNOW I NEVER SAID SHIT ABOUT HIM TO UPSET YOU...
IM USED TO YOU TAKE MY SHIT? HAHAHA...LIKE WHAT?! WHEN HAVE YOU EVER TOOKEN "MY SHIT"? YOU SAY YOU'RE BASICALLY THE ONLY ONE DOING A PART IN TRYING TO MAKE OUR FRIENDSHIP BETTER AND WHATNOT...SINCE WHEN DOES DITCHING YOUR BEST FRIEND HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH MAKING A FRIENDSHIP BETTER?
YOU'RE PRETTY MUCH MAKING IT SEEM AS THOUGH I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOU...LET'S SEE HERE SHALL WE?
WHO THE FUCK TAKES CARE OF YOU WHEN YOU'RE FUCKIN' DRUNK?
WHO THE FUCK TRIES TO PROTECT YOU AGAINST PEOPLE WHO I KNOW ARE JUST GONNA END UP HURTING YOU?
WHO'S HOUSE WERE YOU AT WHEN YOUR MOM KICKED YOU OUT?
WHO'S BED DID YOU SLEEP IN?
WHO WAS THERE FUCKIN' CRYING WITH YOU AND TRYING TO FUCKIN' COMFORT YOU AND MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER?
ME! SO DO NOT FUCKIN' TRY TO ACT LIKE I'VE NEVER DONE MY PART.
YOU'RE GONNA FUCKIN' SIT THERE AND FUCKIN' TELL ME THAT YOU HONESTLY THINK ANYONE ELSE WOULD DO THE SHIT I DO FOR YOU? AND TAKE BETTER CARE OF YOU THAN I DO?
YOU'RE FUCKIN' TELLING ME TO STOP TRYING TO MAKE MYSELF OUT TO BE A BAD ASS...TAKE YOUR OWN ADVICE.