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So I totally just finished my last week in college!! woohoo!! Unfortunately, I will be going back to school, but not for a year!!
I feel like I should have been so excited that I just finished my placement today, but I don't. This place was a place that I could have never seen myself get so attached to, and what did I do? I fell for this place and all the residents there. My last two days of placement were anything but what I had imagined. Chaos broke out these last two days and as weird as it sounds, I feel like I have unfinished business or something there.
First of all, yesterday I went in and was listening to the report given. For everyone who doesn't know where I do my placement/did my placement, it was at a place called Royal Ottawa Place. This is a place for people who mental disorders. Anywho, so I was listening to the report given by the overnight nurse, and he says, "well, tonight was a quiet one. Of course, it's always quiet when someone is dying." Immediately I say, "excuse me?! Who is passing away?" and he told me that my FAVOURITE resident was dying.
I spent pretty much 6 hours out of the 8 hours I was there, just sitting with her, holding her hand, making her comfortable and talking to her. She wasn't really all that coherent by that time, so she I don't think that she really understood what I was saying.
I can't get over how much a person can change over a period of 24 hours. The day before that, she was in her electric wheelchair, running into things as usual. She normally had the tendency to drive too close to the wall and wonder why her hand hurt so much afterward. I think the main reason that she grew on me was because she reminded me so much of my grandpa. Not that she looked like a man, but they both had the same fragility about them. The way their skin looked and the shape of their face were just so identical. Now she is dependent on oxygen and is laying there like a vegetable....
Anywho.. I thought for sure that when I came into placement today she would be gone, but she wasn't! She is still holding on for dear life. To make a long story short here... The reason I feel like it's unfinished business is because well.. she is still alive right now, but will I know when she has passed? Aw.. It's just too sad, but really, that is life and this is the field I have gotten myself into!!! She had a good life!! Her mom was actually the founder of the Humane Society!! haha..
On a lighter note... I think I got myself a job!!!! They are just checking my references and then they are going to call me!! (pray everyone!! haha) it's a good Monday- Friday job (and I can also pick up shifts if I want to)so that means that I get to have a summer this year!! *yay!!* I will make a decent amount of money there so I won't have to get another job as well.
Maybe I'll see my boyfriend more this summer! ha.
This post is long enough as it is!! I'll post more later..
I feel like I should have been so excited that I just finished my placement today, but I don't. This place was a place that I could have never seen myself get so attached to, and what did I do? I fell for this place and all the residents there. My last two days of placement were anything but what I had imagined. Chaos broke out these last two days and as weird as it sounds, I feel like I have unfinished business or something there.
First of all, yesterday I went in and was listening to the report given. For everyone who doesn't know where I do my placement/did my placement, it was at a place called Royal Ottawa Place. This is a place for people who mental disorders. Anywho, so I was listening to the report given by the overnight nurse, and he says, "well, tonight was a quiet one. Of course, it's always quiet when someone is dying." Immediately I say, "excuse me?! Who is passing away?" and he told me that my FAVOURITE resident was dying.
I spent pretty much 6 hours out of the 8 hours I was there, just sitting with her, holding her hand, making her comfortable and talking to her. She wasn't really all that coherent by that time, so she I don't think that she really understood what I was saying.
I can't get over how much a person can change over a period of 24 hours. The day before that, she was in her electric wheelchair, running into things as usual. She normally had the tendency to drive too close to the wall and wonder why her hand hurt so much afterward. I think the main reason that she grew on me was because she reminded me so much of my grandpa. Not that she looked like a man, but they both had the same fragility about them. The way their skin looked and the shape of their face were just so identical. Now she is dependent on oxygen and is laying there like a vegetable....
Anywho.. I thought for sure that when I came into placement today she would be gone, but she wasn't! She is still holding on for dear life. To make a long story short here... The reason I feel like it's unfinished business is because well.. she is still alive right now, but will I know when she has passed? Aw.. It's just too sad, but really, that is life and this is the field I have gotten myself into!!! She had a good life!! Her mom was actually the founder of the Humane Society!! haha..
On a lighter note... I think I got myself a job!!!! They are just checking my references and then they are going to call me!! (pray everyone!! haha) it's a good Monday- Friday job (and I can also pick up shifts if I want to)so that means that I get to have a summer this year!! *yay!!* I will make a decent amount of money there so I won't have to get another job as well.
Maybe I'll see my boyfriend more this summer! ha.
This post is long enough as it is!! I'll post more later..