Crazyness
So my life is right weird. I tried getting ahold of my dad for awhile now everyone has been. Friggen last sunday i got his number and called it. It said "This number has been disconnected blah blah blah" So i don't know what the hell happened to my dad. He could be dead for all i know. He hasn't paid me any money since Feburary. I havn't talk to him/seen him since May 19 (his birthday) when i told him happy birthday and he said he would be back for a hair cut and never showed up. He hasn't tried to contact me or anything. I havn't seen my sisters in months i don't even remember the last time i saw them. I Emma had a birthday at the end of july and i don't know how old she is or when her birthday is Racheal has a birthday this month i know she's a year younger than emma but don't know when her birthday is. Peggy and dad said they would bring the girls down for a hair cut the week of June 20th and never did. My uncle doesn't even know where he is for while there all dads mail was going to his place and i don't know what came out of that but as of today my uncle has no clue where my dad is.
But do you know what i say FUCK IT ALL. Clearly if my dad cared enough he would have tried to contact me at least sometime out of the past 3 months basically just to say hey or here's my new number. I am sick and tired of his bullshit all the time. He walks in and out of my life so much that i'm use to it. No wonder i have trust issues, i can't even fuckin trust my own father and he doesn't care about me so why should i care about him. Every promise he has broken, he has lied to me more times than i can count. And then when he does contact me he comes up with some excuse and makes me feel bad so i forgive him. Basically i havn't had a father since i was 7, and you know what i'm fine with that. I am not waisting my time on someone who doesn't care about me anymore. Fuck IT
Anyways Today was slow at work. I did 3 people. Then i had nobody after 5 so i did Sylvia's (my boss) color. It turned out good. Better than it was that's for sure and considering what i had to work with. But yet our till was off. It was weird we should have been under a lot of money since sylvia had to pay lori for last saturday yet we were over a lot it was messed up. I get my color done on monday :) gettin rid of the red. I think i'm gonna go with 3 prts 3M + 1prt 4M so that way its darker since my last one with 5M and 4M faded a lot. Then do highlights throughout. I'm excited i'm doin Alex's hair on thursday :).
Tuesday is my first day off in i don't know how long that i don't have to work at either place :) Since Kay is home and everytime she has been home i havn't hung out with here were gonna go see a movie. Basically i will finish all my extension stuff in the day then hang out with her at night. Then Wednesday Jamie and I are going to the city, were gonna go see World Trade Center then he's comming back and spending the night :) then i have to work 10-2 then i think were hangin out then lisa and i are going to be gettin our tattoos. I'm excited the newbe is doin mine. I know i know i'm letting someone new do my tattoo what if he screws up...but ya know what, everyone gotta learn somehow and aaron is gonna be right there and it's just a star not that difficult, and the guy seems pretty cool..i like him i trust him.
Thursday is 2 months for jamie adn I :) seems longer for some reason. Maybe it's beacuse we've known each other for so long. I don't know what were doin yet. Probably nothin much but it'll be fun just to hang out i love spending time with him. The other night we just sat outside by my car after he got off work and it was nice we just talked i loved it.
Anyhoo this is longer than i wanted it to be i'm off to bed
~*steph*~ xoxo
But do you know what i say FUCK IT ALL. Clearly if my dad cared enough he would have tried to contact me at least sometime out of the past 3 months basically just to say hey or here's my new number. I am sick and tired of his bullshit all the time. He walks in and out of my life so much that i'm use to it. No wonder i have trust issues, i can't even fuckin trust my own father and he doesn't care about me so why should i care about him. Every promise he has broken, he has lied to me more times than i can count. And then when he does contact me he comes up with some excuse and makes me feel bad so i forgive him. Basically i havn't had a father since i was 7, and you know what i'm fine with that. I am not waisting my time on someone who doesn't care about me anymore. Fuck IT
Anyways Today was slow at work. I did 3 people. Then i had nobody after 5 so i did Sylvia's (my boss) color. It turned out good. Better than it was that's for sure and considering what i had to work with. But yet our till was off. It was weird we should have been under a lot of money since sylvia had to pay lori for last saturday yet we were over a lot it was messed up. I get my color done on monday :) gettin rid of the red. I think i'm gonna go with 3 prts 3M + 1prt 4M so that way its darker since my last one with 5M and 4M faded a lot. Then do highlights throughout. I'm excited i'm doin Alex's hair on thursday :).
Tuesday is my first day off in i don't know how long that i don't have to work at either place :) Since Kay is home and everytime she has been home i havn't hung out with here were gonna go see a movie. Basically i will finish all my extension stuff in the day then hang out with her at night. Then Wednesday Jamie and I are going to the city, were gonna go see World Trade Center then he's comming back and spending the night :) then i have to work 10-2 then i think were hangin out then lisa and i are going to be gettin our tattoos. I'm excited the newbe is doin mine. I know i know i'm letting someone new do my tattoo what if he screws up...but ya know what, everyone gotta learn somehow and aaron is gonna be right there and it's just a star not that difficult, and the guy seems pretty cool..i like him i trust him.
Thursday is 2 months for jamie adn I :) seems longer for some reason. Maybe it's beacuse we've known each other for so long. I don't know what were doin yet. Probably nothin much but it'll be fun just to hang out i love spending time with him. The other night we just sat outside by my car after he got off work and it was nice we just talked i loved it.
Anyhoo this is longer than i wanted it to be i'm off to bed
~*steph*~ xoxo