Finding Order
My federal return all went to getting my student loan in order and making a credit card payment. I'd been getting SEVERAL calls EVERYDAY (even Sunday) from creditors or who the fuck ever from "unavailable" or 866 numbers with no messages or a robot saying "This is Sallie Mae..." So I finally braced myself and used my morning off to sit down and make that phone call.
I feel better. Though my bank account is severely diminished. I feel responsible and like I'm on the right track to just getting through this. The 2 women I spoke with were very nice and helpful and seemed to be quite understanding of my situation. It helps when you have 2 jobs and are still scraping for rent. I still have a $370/mo payment but that's better than $785 and a late fee. Plus, not getting those calls all day everyday takes a huge weight off my shoulders.
Music with Adam is going well. We have a lot of ideas and A LOT to work on.
My birthday was amazing. It was more like a birth week and I thank Muri, Adam, and my co-workers for making it so special. Muri flew in the morning of my birthday, and proceeded to just be a part of my life for the rest of the week. It was amazing. She took all of my classes and came to the theatre with me. She was there telling jokes and funny stories while I got my TATTOO, and got to meet my friends here and go dancing. It was so nice to have someone around to bounce my thoughts off of and listen to music with while I was at home. She also got me out of the apt while I wasn't working and for that I'm truly grateful.
Adam got us tickets to NO DOUBT on July 11!!! I'm way way way excited and still can't believe what he must have gone through to get tickets to a sold-out concert. I honestly can't wait. Paramore is opening for them, and that's even special to us because the first time he met me, I was singing a Paramore song. :) It will be great for us to see No Doubt together because it's a first for both of us! Gwen is truly one of my idols and influences. Her strength and business-savvy ways in this industry are inspiring and uplifting. Adam showed me a recording of when she had a guest track in a Sublime song. whoooooooaaaaaaa
Basically Adam is great and somehow I've been able to go through all the shit I've been going through lately (car stolen, espresso pot blowing up, rehabilitating, etc) and I've been ok. I don't tribute any of that to him, but what I am shocked at is that I'm able to approach him with a steady conscience even though I've been going through all of this. Perhaps his way of looking at things and logical explanations for situations has just rubbed off on me. I feel like a complete person so when I'm around him, I'm positively overwhelmed with personality and emotion.
How is it that someone can know your soul so well?
How is it that I can get off the train and be pulled into his arms as if I were seeing my long-lost friend from years past?
How is it that when he says "Me too" a little light sparks in my chest?
How is it that when he put me and friends into a cab on Thursday (tattoo night/b-day celebration) in the rain and everything was rushed and crazy and excited, that I kissed him and said "Ok have a great night and thank you so much and I love you so much" that he kissed me even harder and said, excitedly, "I love you so much too" that i felt something I've never experienced before?
Even in the middle of a crazy intersection in the rain with a pissy cabdriver.....
I have no words.
No words except knowing the difference between reality and wishes.
I feel better. Though my bank account is severely diminished. I feel responsible and like I'm on the right track to just getting through this. The 2 women I spoke with were very nice and helpful and seemed to be quite understanding of my situation. It helps when you have 2 jobs and are still scraping for rent. I still have a $370/mo payment but that's better than $785 and a late fee. Plus, not getting those calls all day everyday takes a huge weight off my shoulders.
Music with Adam is going well. We have a lot of ideas and A LOT to work on.
My birthday was amazing. It was more like a birth week and I thank Muri, Adam, and my co-workers for making it so special. Muri flew in the morning of my birthday, and proceeded to just be a part of my life for the rest of the week. It was amazing. She took all of my classes and came to the theatre with me. She was there telling jokes and funny stories while I got my TATTOO, and got to meet my friends here and go dancing. It was so nice to have someone around to bounce my thoughts off of and listen to music with while I was at home. She also got me out of the apt while I wasn't working and for that I'm truly grateful.
Adam got us tickets to NO DOUBT on July 11!!! I'm way way way excited and still can't believe what he must have gone through to get tickets to a sold-out concert. I honestly can't wait. Paramore is opening for them, and that's even special to us because the first time he met me, I was singing a Paramore song. :) It will be great for us to see No Doubt together because it's a first for both of us! Gwen is truly one of my idols and influences. Her strength and business-savvy ways in this industry are inspiring and uplifting. Adam showed me a recording of when she had a guest track in a Sublime song. whoooooooaaaaaaa
Basically Adam is great and somehow I've been able to go through all the shit I've been going through lately (car stolen, espresso pot blowing up, rehabilitating, etc) and I've been ok. I don't tribute any of that to him, but what I am shocked at is that I'm able to approach him with a steady conscience even though I've been going through all of this. Perhaps his way of looking at things and logical explanations for situations has just rubbed off on me. I feel like a complete person so when I'm around him, I'm positively overwhelmed with personality and emotion.
How is it that someone can know your soul so well?
How is it that I can get off the train and be pulled into his arms as if I were seeing my long-lost friend from years past?
How is it that when he says "Me too" a little light sparks in my chest?
How is it that when he put me and friends into a cab on Thursday (tattoo night/b-day celebration) in the rain and everything was rushed and crazy and excited, that I kissed him and said "Ok have a great night and thank you so much and I love you so much" that he kissed me even harder and said, excitedly, "I love you so much too" that i felt something I've never experienced before?
Even in the middle of a crazy intersection in the rain with a pissy cabdriver.....
I have no words.
No words except knowing the difference between reality and wishes.