Travelling down a long bumpy road...

[stephieboo33]

I decided to give Cortney another chance... But I'm thinking that wasn't a good idea. Before we started talkin again, she told me she isn't gonna be friends with Jimmy anymore or talk to him, because our friendship is more important... So, after a few more days I started to calm down and we chatted for a couple minutes, and she apologized n everything. Well, I went to her house the other day because she had Thunder put to sleep... Her and Joe were fightin a little bit.. She had me text him explaining more of how she felt.. Well, I had her phone and I was lookin thru her recent calls list....... You can probably guess what I found... She had talked to Jimmy the day before. I calmly asked her about it, and she made it sound like it wasn't a big deal. Even if it was a short conversation, that is still a big deal. I have a really big trust issue with her. I don't know how to deal with it. I feel lied to again.... I just really feel that she isn't respecting me as a friend. Ok, I'll come clean about Jimmy. When I fisrt met Jimmy I fell completely head over heels for him. I spent every second I couyld with him... Everything was perfect. Then one night, like almost 2 months after we were seeing each other... He sat me down and told me he has had a girlfriend for like 6 or 7 years! I was absolutely heartbroken! But I was sooo attached to him n stuff that I blocked that out of my mind, and tried to convince him I was better for him than Kristy. Well, Cortney got on my case all the time about Jimmy... She said a lot of bad stuff about him all the time, and to my friends n everything. So, when I finally removed myself from the situation, you'd think that Cortney would be happy I stopped talkin to him, right? But, she turned around a week later and started chillin with him and even tried getting a job with him. I am so confused about what I should do. I have lost so much trust and respect for her. When I think of her the word that comes to mind is backstabber. That's not a good thing to think about a person who you grew up with and are practically sisters with. I just have so much anger and sadness... It sucks.

If anyone has been in a similar situation.... How have you handeled it???