Question..

[stephie_a]

"What if the question is not 'why am I so infrequently the person I really want to be,' but 'why do I so infrequently want to be the person I really am?'"
Thats a very good sum up for me. Why am I not the person I want to be, but why am I not the person I am? Thats it. The key to this mystery...