wooooooo frickety hoooooooo
Time is sllloooooowwly ticking away. Only 5 more days and I will be in my warm, cozy, familiar home in Mississippi. I can't wait to be able to sleep in my own bed, wake up and eat normal food, buy my own food, get a job, have a car, meet normal people. hahaha im such a loser but im actually excited about going to mississippi and going to school there for a semester, then who knows what next semester holds for me...maybe ill go to NJ to Monmouth like I've been planning, it all depends on if my parents are into it. If not, then MA is looking better and better everyday. But that doesnt matter right now I just need to get through this coming semester :-) Meet some cool new people even if they are from Mississippi I'm sure they have to have a pretty good scene. Haha if i get to go visit northbridge this xmas i know im not the same girl. I feel like I've changed a lot...in a good way. I feel like before I was always dressing to impress and trying to do my hair and wear makeup and shit and now I'm into just wearing comfortable clothes and dressing up when it's needed not all the time like for school..haha what was i thinking in high school? waking up at like 545 just to straighten my hair..i dont even blow dry it anymore, just pull it up. I've pierced my eyebrow. I feel more like myself now..i feel like in high school i was trying to portray an image..an image that my mom loved and still loves and shes mad that i dress a little more casually now...i mean i used to have my days when i dressed casually in hs but my mom would hate it i really feel that getting away from the family has helped me get to know myself and understand who i am. I feel like I can make my own decisions and not rely so much on other peoples opinions anymore..i dont care, id rather be myself and get what i want out of life. i know theres more growing that i have to do but i know it will be fun and getting to know yourself is awesome :-) noooow i cant wait to meet that one person who will understand me and bring more joy into my life then i can imagine..that day will change my life forever...i just hope it's not too far in the future