Is this how the rest of the year is gonna be?!
As I sit here all done-up, eating a smores bar and watching The Producers on HBO on New Year's Eve, I can't help but wonder why am I here?! I was so excited about coming home for the Holidays because I thought things had changed and we were all gonna have a great time...just the 5 of us. Well, that was all true...until a few hours ago. Now, it's all shot to shit.
We usually have this small celebration at home where we cook all this food and toast Sparkling grape juice at midnight...(I live in a dry house. My parents never drink.) And that's what we do. It's a family thing...I know it sounds kinda blah, but it's great to us. WELL! Since Tiffany just graduated, she wanted to go and celebrate New Year's with her friends here in Mobile since she doesn't know when she'll be able to see them again b/c she's moving to Atlanta and not lookin back. She's had these plans for months, but when she told my parents, all hell broke loose. Now, she's gone. My brother is somewhere. My parents have locked themselves in their room, and then there's me. I still want to do something. This New Year's Eve is already depressing enough; and to make it worse is just......bad. SO! I begged my parents to let me go to the store and get some grape juice, and they finally caved in. So, we'll toast the new year at least. Hell, I'm still gonna eat a lot of food. Fuck the depressing shit. I just wish I wasn't alone.
To everyone reading this, WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO THE WHOLE NEW YEAR'S CELEBRATION AGAIN B/C I DON'T HAVE A CHANCE TO CELEBRATE! I bet I'm not the only one, so anyone else, this is ur celebration too. I don't know where we'll have this celebration, but there's gonna be one dammit! And we're gonna have ALCOHOL!
I miss you all soooooooooooooo very much! I'm ready to come back!!!!!!!
Anyway, everyone, have a great time tonight but be careful. Love to all!
We usually have this small celebration at home where we cook all this food and toast Sparkling grape juice at midnight...(I live in a dry house. My parents never drink.) And that's what we do. It's a family thing...I know it sounds kinda blah, but it's great to us. WELL! Since Tiffany just graduated, she wanted to go and celebrate New Year's with her friends here in Mobile since she doesn't know when she'll be able to see them again b/c she's moving to Atlanta and not lookin back. She's had these plans for months, but when she told my parents, all hell broke loose. Now, she's gone. My brother is somewhere. My parents have locked themselves in their room, and then there's me. I still want to do something. This New Year's Eve is already depressing enough; and to make it worse is just......bad. SO! I begged my parents to let me go to the store and get some grape juice, and they finally caved in. So, we'll toast the new year at least. Hell, I'm still gonna eat a lot of food. Fuck the depressing shit. I just wish I wasn't alone.
To everyone reading this, WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO DO THE WHOLE NEW YEAR'S CELEBRATION AGAIN B/C I DON'T HAVE A CHANCE TO CELEBRATE! I bet I'm not the only one, so anyone else, this is ur celebration too. I don't know where we'll have this celebration, but there's gonna be one dammit! And we're gonna have ALCOHOL!
I miss you all soooooooooooooo very much! I'm ready to come back!!!!!!!
Anyway, everyone, have a great time tonight but be careful. Love to all!