"God is inside me and everyone else..."
This is how my Thanksgiving went...
I wake up at about 9 to see the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, which was pretty long and boring BUT The Color Purple did their opening song near the beginning of the parade and of course it was amazing! Then, I went back to sleep until it was time to go to my grandmother's house.
My mom has already gone to Dear's house (Dear is my grandmother) so that she could help set up and everything. So, it was just tiffany, nathan, my dad, and me driving there. We get to the house and see that everyone else is there, so we brace ourselves before we go in b/c we know what to expect...or so we thought. We walk in and some family members say hi and others don't. One of my aunts, a closeted 40-year-old lesbian, gave me the evil eye all day until I gave it back to her and she stopped looking at me.
There were two big tables set up so that supposedly everyone could fit. And we all gathered around one of them to say a prayer and grace, and while we were still waiting for everyone to get in the room, I looked around a part of one of the tables to see where my name card was. I didn't find it so I thought that it was either on the other side of the table or at the other table. So I thought nothing of it at the time. After the prayer and grace were said, Tiffany and I went to both tables looking for our names. We didn't find them b/c we didn't have places at the tables. They set places for everyone else INCLUDING people who weren't actual family and two who they didn't even fuckin know personally!!!!!! But they didn't have room for us. THAT was not a fucking coincidence! So, one of my aunts told us to sit in the other living room with the tv and eat in there. OH HELL NO!!!!!! I was so fuckin pissed off that I lost my appetite and so did Tiffany. My cousin, Abe (aka the only family member that likes me and tiffany), had to literally drag me in the dining room to eat b/c some people didn't show up. If he didn't tell us that, we never woulda known b/c nobody else was gonna tell us and we weren't going to go look desperate. If they want to be messy, then FUCK THEM! I ate a couple of bites of dressing, macaroni, and bread and that was it. I pretty much didn't eat sunday dinner. I know it's awful to say, but if I never saw most of them again, I'd be fine. I know I shouldn't think that, but there's just so much a person can take. And that was a DIRECT blow! We know we're the black sheeps of the family, but umm...we're also the most successful out of all the other families and grandkids. And we did it without their help! So who needs them?! I sure as hell don't!
THEN! After dinner, my grandmother had the nerve to tell us, "Y'all aren't guests in my house. You need to help clean up." WHAT?! You mean, you want us to clean up a dinner table that we weren't even fuckin invited to?! OH FUCKIN HELL TO DA NAW!!!!! So, I played with my little baby cousin and WATCHED them clean the shit up. Don't try to do me! YOU MUST NOT KNOW 'BOUT ME!
SOOOOOOOOO MAD!!!!!!! But I just made myself a ham sandwich and it was so good! So, all is well. I'm going shopping tomorrow at 5AM, so I'm excited b/c I actually have some money! Yay! I'm so nervous about this Color Purple audition but I'm also the most excited I've ever been about an audition. I've had dreams about this...yeah, kinda weird, but that's me. Anyway, I've ranted and raved enough. I hope all of you had pretty decent holidays. See all of you soon. byees!
Much love!
~Steph~
I wake up at about 9 to see the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, which was pretty long and boring BUT The Color Purple did their opening song near the beginning of the parade and of course it was amazing! Then, I went back to sleep until it was time to go to my grandmother's house.
My mom has already gone to Dear's house (Dear is my grandmother) so that she could help set up and everything. So, it was just tiffany, nathan, my dad, and me driving there. We get to the house and see that everyone else is there, so we brace ourselves before we go in b/c we know what to expect...or so we thought. We walk in and some family members say hi and others don't. One of my aunts, a closeted 40-year-old lesbian, gave me the evil eye all day until I gave it back to her and she stopped looking at me.
There were two big tables set up so that supposedly everyone could fit. And we all gathered around one of them to say a prayer and grace, and while we were still waiting for everyone to get in the room, I looked around a part of one of the tables to see where my name card was. I didn't find it so I thought that it was either on the other side of the table or at the other table. So I thought nothing of it at the time. After the prayer and grace were said, Tiffany and I went to both tables looking for our names. We didn't find them b/c we didn't have places at the tables. They set places for everyone else INCLUDING people who weren't actual family and two who they didn't even fuckin know personally!!!!!! But they didn't have room for us. THAT was not a fucking coincidence! So, one of my aunts told us to sit in the other living room with the tv and eat in there. OH HELL NO!!!!!! I was so fuckin pissed off that I lost my appetite and so did Tiffany. My cousin, Abe (aka the only family member that likes me and tiffany), had to literally drag me in the dining room to eat b/c some people didn't show up. If he didn't tell us that, we never woulda known b/c nobody else was gonna tell us and we weren't going to go look desperate. If they want to be messy, then FUCK THEM! I ate a couple of bites of dressing, macaroni, and bread and that was it. I pretty much didn't eat sunday dinner. I know it's awful to say, but if I never saw most of them again, I'd be fine. I know I shouldn't think that, but there's just so much a person can take. And that was a DIRECT blow! We know we're the black sheeps of the family, but umm...we're also the most successful out of all the other families and grandkids. And we did it without their help! So who needs them?! I sure as hell don't!
THEN! After dinner, my grandmother had the nerve to tell us, "Y'all aren't guests in my house. You need to help clean up." WHAT?! You mean, you want us to clean up a dinner table that we weren't even fuckin invited to?! OH FUCKIN HELL TO DA NAW!!!!! So, I played with my little baby cousin and WATCHED them clean the shit up. Don't try to do me! YOU MUST NOT KNOW 'BOUT ME!
SOOOOOOOOO MAD!!!!!!! But I just made myself a ham sandwich and it was so good! So, all is well. I'm going shopping tomorrow at 5AM, so I'm excited b/c I actually have some money! Yay! I'm so nervous about this Color Purple audition but I'm also the most excited I've ever been about an audition. I've had dreams about this...yeah, kinda weird, but that's me. Anyway, I've ranted and raved enough. I hope all of you had pretty decent holidays. See all of you soon. byees!
Much love!
~Steph~