Attack, Attack
So I'm actually having a panic attack, it's like the third one this week for some reason!!! I don't know what to do!
I hate writing about personally things on this anymore but I have to release this..panic somehow before I do something I really regret.
I thought that after a certain time you STOP having attacks over someone! Especially if you are supposed to not like them, don't talk to them. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!
I don't know if it's becuase I'm not with anyone, or if it's cause I really am not over it. But it's been like a year and a half, and I'm certain that he doesn't care, so why do I get these moments where I just seem to not be able to breathe and freak out. Maybe I'm scared of something that has nothing to do with him, maybe it just goes back to him cuase that was the last time I really think someone cared than ripped that one right out of my hands.
I don't know how to make this go away, it's definitely not seeming like a healthy thing to not be over it. The scariest part is that I think I am over it, but I don't know why every time I'm upset or just...not focused on something great these thoughts come back.
Weird? Oh yeah put me in that category. Until than I'm going to try and...calm down.
I hate writing about personally things on this anymore but I have to release this..panic somehow before I do something I really regret.
I thought that after a certain time you STOP having attacks over someone! Especially if you are supposed to not like them, don't talk to them. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!
I don't know if it's becuase I'm not with anyone, or if it's cause I really am not over it. But it's been like a year and a half, and I'm certain that he doesn't care, so why do I get these moments where I just seem to not be able to breathe and freak out. Maybe I'm scared of something that has nothing to do with him, maybe it just goes back to him cuase that was the last time I really think someone cared than ripped that one right out of my hands.
I don't know how to make this go away, it's definitely not seeming like a healthy thing to not be over it. The scariest part is that I think I am over it, but I don't know why every time I'm upset or just...not focused on something great these thoughts come back.
Weird? Oh yeah put me in that category. Until than I'm going to try and...calm down.