It's so easy to close your eyes...
"L'enfance est un couteau planté dans la gorge. On ne le retire pas facilement." - Wajdi Mouawad
Childhood is a knife in your throat that cannot be easily removed. More or less. That guy's a montreal playwright i just saw the english version of his play Tideline yesterday. i cried. it was almost 4 hours long. jeeebus. but it was amazing. theres one actor i didn't like at all. but he probaly fit his role i just really didn't like him at allll. but it was amazing. I cried. It made me think of david. I don't know if that's why i cried. I think any time someone says their father died i'm probably going to think of him and i'm probably goign to cry. and it made me think that if david starts dating someone else someday they'll have never met his father (most likely) and for some reason taht made me sad even though i only met his dad twice and it wasn't very conversation-filled...there were all kidns of ridiculously good lines form the play that i wanted to remember but i can't. and there was a glorious love story which honeslty made me cry.
one of the characters. he was so goddamn fucking angry. looked a lot like a crack addict. his eyes were like.. i duno bombs or something. he had all this nervous energy. and it was so.... hot... it wa a terribly terribly sad story and he's a messed up kid and you jsut wanted to hold him and have him throw you against a wall and run and hold him again and pacify him and make him ok... and i was like *jaw drop*
and i feel alone. it might be because i am. in regards to a boy. but i don't miss him. i don't think. just... like denise and i were saying. the presence. the body. even if he didnt always make me feel better there was always that possibility , that person to run to, in theory. yah kno?
November seems to be a shit month for relationships. and everything. but maybe not.
And apparently Kyle Still likes me. I don't know how i feel abotu that. actually i do know. im flattered. i don't kno why he does and i feel like i actually am a dissapointment. I haven't been the greatest friend to him since David and i started going out really. We've had a conenctions but i don't feel it anymore.i don't think i like him back. I woul dlove to be able to to make him happy and to go out with him. but idon't see us going out... thats all i know im feeling so far. he didn't tell me though. Jamie-Leigh did. BAhh.
Childhood is a knife in your throat that cannot be easily removed. More or less. That guy's a montreal playwright i just saw the english version of his play Tideline yesterday. i cried. it was almost 4 hours long. jeeebus. but it was amazing. theres one actor i didn't like at all. but he probaly fit his role i just really didn't like him at allll. but it was amazing. I cried. It made me think of david. I don't know if that's why i cried. I think any time someone says their father died i'm probably going to think of him and i'm probably goign to cry. and it made me think that if david starts dating someone else someday they'll have never met his father (most likely) and for some reason taht made me sad even though i only met his dad twice and it wasn't very conversation-filled...there were all kidns of ridiculously good lines form the play that i wanted to remember but i can't. and there was a glorious love story which honeslty made me cry.
one of the characters. he was so goddamn fucking angry. looked a lot like a crack addict. his eyes were like.. i duno bombs or something. he had all this nervous energy. and it was so.... hot... it wa a terribly terribly sad story and he's a messed up kid and you jsut wanted to hold him and have him throw you against a wall and run and hold him again and pacify him and make him ok... and i was like *jaw drop*
and i feel alone. it might be because i am. in regards to a boy. but i don't miss him. i don't think. just... like denise and i were saying. the presence. the body. even if he didnt always make me feel better there was always that possibility , that person to run to, in theory. yah kno?
November seems to be a shit month for relationships. and everything. but maybe not.
And apparently Kyle Still likes me. I don't know how i feel abotu that. actually i do know. im flattered. i don't kno why he does and i feel like i actually am a dissapointment. I haven't been the greatest friend to him since David and i started going out really. We've had a conenctions but i don't feel it anymore.i don't think i like him back. I woul dlove to be able to to make him happy and to go out with him. but idon't see us going out... thats all i know im feeling so far. he didn't tell me though. Jamie-Leigh did. BAhh.