its been a while
Well hello LJ long time no talk. guess what?!? im feeling depressed for no reason! AWESOME! well i guess there is a reason but i shouldn't feel bad about it. i'm sad that my dad's side of the family completely ignores me. its like they never have a niece or cousin or a brother. why am i the outcast. i didn't bad mouth the mother of my children RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM for ten years. i didn't go into a psych hospital for weeks and then get out only to not take my medication and live in a storage facility. why am i being punished. i wish i could find reasons for all these questions floating around in my skull. forget them, seriously, they think whatever they want. i'm right i know it.
At least i still have a loving amazing husband. i love laying here watching him sleep. holding his hand and rubbing against his chest. he makes me feel like i'm worth something. we've been married a whole year now and it feels so good. everyone says the first year is the hardest, and believe me it is. but i feel we got past it all and got over that hump and we can take on anything thats thrown our way. we've got the most important thing. love.
At least i still have a loving amazing husband. i love laying here watching him sleep. holding his hand and rubbing against his chest. he makes me feel like i'm worth something. we've been married a whole year now and it feels so good. everyone says the first year is the hardest, and believe me it is. but i feel we got past it all and got over that hump and we can take on anything thats thrown our way. we've got the most important thing. love.