Pain
I've got a sick feeling in my stomach all the time. I really wish this shit could all be over with. I'm lashing out at everyone including my mom for no real reason. I'm unhappy thus everyone else should be. ugh I love my default. I miss my husband so much. I'm sad that I decided to not see my Dad for so long. It was selfish. At the time I was acting out of anger for all the times he told me that my mom was useless and that I would never amount to anything. I was mad about the times he always told me he wished i was a boy to carry on the Armstrong name. But no one deserves to be ignored, things should have been talked out between us. It was hard to talk things out when he wasn't on medication but i still could have tried. Now he can't understand anything i say and i can't understand anything he says. Damn the cigarettes and the stroke.
Well I tried talking to a friend last night about how i was feeling lately and she could care less. i have listened to all of my friends problems no matter how i felt but they can't take five minutes to maybe listen to me.
I guess since no one seems to care and are all being selfish i'll just stay alone and work out all the time. fuck it all ya know.
Well I tried talking to a friend last night about how i was feeling lately and she could care less. i have listened to all of my friends problems no matter how i felt but they can't take five minutes to maybe listen to me.
I guess since no one seems to care and are all being selfish i'll just stay alone and work out all the time. fuck it all ya know.