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Here lately it has just been so hard to get out and go to functions. I have been dealing with some hard issues with myself. I have found myself hiding at home and staying away from everyone. I think it has to do with my social disorder that I have with men and boys. If I stay at home I am less likely to be rejected. Anyways, I am saying this
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I met another one of my best friends Rod at Connections in 98(well we briefly met at a Stevie Nicks Starwood concert in 98 previously--However we met again at Connections- no sex involved, same as with Chad :).
Im sorry you have been depressed lately, join the club. I watch too much Dr Phill way too much. So what Im about to say please take it the right way.
I hope you can meet some new people soon. The best way to meet new people is to get out and socialize. Who gives a shit if you are 10 pounds or so overweight, join the club so am I! We aren't the only members. Im not the skinny pole I use to be but I can still go out and get laid. Yeah I do live in a bigger city but you can do it(I don't mean just sex,go out and meet new people too)! Theres nothing wrong with finding a bf off of the Internet or in a gay bar. Where else are you going to meet gay people? Yes you may get lucky and randomly meet Mr Right at some random place. But honestly if you want to meet gay people in hopes if finding a bf you have to go to gay places. Shit you could always go to a local str8 bar, library, Wal Mart, church group and play "gee I wonder who is gay" so I can meet someone. At least at a ALL gay place you already know that everyone is gay.
I know how you can be sick of the gay scene, its not the scene its you or me. Believe me I have weekends where I just wanna hang out with my many str8 friends and act like myself. That way I dont have to act so str8 to attract gay guys, nor do I have to worry about being too much of myself and worrying about sending people away. Honestly I dont give a shit what anyone thinks of me. I dont think the gay scene has anything to do with it. You just want to hang out in a comfortable atmosphere where you dont feel like everyone is stuck up on how skinny you are or me. FUCK EM!
Go out, be yourself, have fun for who you are, and most importantly WHO GIVES A SHIT of what anyone thinks of you!!!!!
Charles :)
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The atmosphere is already comfortable, we just aren't comfortable with ourselves. You told people to respond, and this its my nice quaint response :). My real response is just to get off your ass and go out! Staying at home and dreaming about what can happen wont get anything accomplished. Stephen you are nicer than the majority of the people in this Nashville social circle. You always have a smile on your face with me and are always in a good mood. Just because someone has a skinny ass drug addicted BF on their belt doesnt mean they are happy. Stop dreaming about wanting to be them. Dream about wanting to be yourself. I want you to get excited about your life. Oh shit wait thats what Dr Phill always says lol.
Get out and make yourself happy. You don't need a bf to make this happen, yeah its sometimes helps though. Dont let your happiness depend on if someone loves in a pre arranged relationship. You already have many people that love you, your friends. Its a Wednesday, the day will be beautiful, the sun will be up today. Well I didnt see the weather report lol, but I hope so. Why dont you go out to Play tonight--if your schedule permits. The only reason why I am responding to your post is bc I actually like you alot. Everything I said is just basic common sense. I read everyones Nashville posts. Its not because I give a shit about everyones problems, honestly Im glad Im not around most of these people. I enjoy reading about peoples shit. Your one of the few people I like, you said respond so I am. Yeah its ok to stay at home sometimes and have me time. Days where you just wanna go fuck everything im gonna be sad today........But not all the time!
Its time to GET OUT THERE AND GO!!!!
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