Today
I feel so good today. I am well rested and feel healthy. I think this summer will be great. Again we need to plan more things to go do. I am excited about Derrick turning 21 this Friday. I think this will be a fun weekend. I might drink too much this weekend and that is all good with me. I plan on having so much fun with all of you too. I will make sure that I spend equal time with everyone. I have been so emotional this last week. I am so ready for some guy to find me attractive and start pursuing me, he he I am tired of being the one that likes the guy and going after him. Not that I have went after someone lately, I am way too picky. I have figured out the last week or two that there are so many levels of love. Relationships are really tricky whether they be friendships, family, or crushes on other guys. Last night I was with Red Headed Eric and we hugged and pop kissed and I found myself feeling that I wanted our friendship to go further for a hot minute. I made sure I thought it through and then figured out what was really going on and realized that I was just emotionally a mess and was letting my mind go off the deep end. I communicated to Eric all I was feeling and then we both agreed that we are just friends and we shouldn't go there. LOL I love human nature. I am just smiling ear to ear right now. I need some hot sex it what I need. LMAO. No really I am needing hugs. That is what I want the most right now. Even if it has to come from my friends I am gonna get some hugs and cuddling---promise that I wouldn't make a move on them. I will talk to you later. Ok for me talking out of my head in this entry. :-) Can't you tell I need love I can't keep a constant thought going, LOL