Life
Lord, lately things have been so weird. I dunno why? I really can't explain them but I don't feel motivated at work anymore and sit and think of all the reasons in the world not to go there or once I get there I think of ways I can leave. Now I know why Chris hated the place so much after a while. I really haven't seen many of my friends lately. Just on the weekend and usually I am liquored up and don't get to have real conversations with them. That is my fault though. I feel as if I am in a transitional period of my life to where I have reached a fork in the road and the road is more than a fork it splits in 30 different directions and I am so scared to take any path. I need direction in my life. That is what I need to be looking for but I am having so much fun standing in the middle of the road spinning around as fast as I can. I am currently running from self disapline that is imparative for me to turn and face. This is probably sounding weird but I needed to type it out being as writing is part of my self help. hehe I need a swift kick in the ass is what I need. I am going to be moving back home in about a month and I think that is what is bringing all of this on. Spring is coming and Spring represents a time of rebirth and renewal. Spring is when everything seems to always get started for me.
I am seeing that our group is slowly moving to smaller groups nowadays which is cool with me. I think it is probably good to break loose and do different things. I think the Winter time brings the group closer together because we run out of things to do and it is when people come together around the holidays and things. I always seem closer to my family and friends during the winter anyways. It was fun while it lasted, esp around Halloween and all the scary houses and trips to scary places and the camping trip. We should do more things like that.
I will write more later when it comes to me.........
I am seeing that our group is slowly moving to smaller groups nowadays which is cool with me. I think it is probably good to break loose and do different things. I think the Winter time brings the group closer together because we run out of things to do and it is when people come together around the holidays and things. I always seem closer to my family and friends during the winter anyways. It was fun while it lasted, esp around Halloween and all the scary houses and trips to scary places and the camping trip. We should do more things like that.
I will write more later when it comes to me.........