where has the time gone?
I clicked on the J's on my myspace friend list and looked @ Jeremy's picture of him holding a baby girl. I thought to myself.. Jeremy has a baby girl now. Wow..I remember the good ole days at Target..the Overnights working w/the crew. We became a tight bunch, bitching about Target, how after time we had to wear the khaki & red @ night..which really didn't make much sense..Maybe during the holidays, but during the regular season..Hell No.
anywho..Jeremy Litz and I became close friends. We use to hang out, talk all the time about whatever and I thought of him as a good friend. Someone I was able to open up to and just be me. I am 7 yrs older than him, the age difference didn't bother him. Has it bothered any guy I've dated? Um I found out recently that Sean was scared to date someone, me, that is 9yrs older than him. anywho..I'm getting sidetracked.
Well I decided to leave him a comment, wish him congratulations to him & Andrea, his high school sweetheart, now wife. I clicked to her page, luckily it wasn't marked private. I peaked at their wedding pictures and almost started to tear.. I was listening to Filo and Peri "Ordinary Moment w Fisher" in the background -this song set the mood for upcoming tears.
These tears are of joy and happiness for ALL my friends that have found their Special someone..their soul mate if you wish to call it that.
I often wonder.. will I meet my "special someone"? at the rate I'm going.. not anytime soon. I have put it in my head that I'll be married at 41. that's Clearly Not a goal, rather it's a feeling of mine. Something in my gut says so.
Does this mean I can run around and date random guys? mmm maybe. hah! nah, just means from now on I must be Very selective. In the past I Thought I was selective, but that was So not the case.
sidetracking again!! the point of this entry is to write about how happy I am for ALL my friends that have found their someone special.
and for those that have not quite yet... continue to live your life..walk, run, jog down that path...choose whichever path that crosses you at not just 1 or 2, but many forks that you will stumble upon and just GO!!!!!!!!!!!!
I meet guys from all over, I go out with them... and see if we're compatible and if not, then I TRY to learn more about what I Want and try to see it in the next guy. But every time I start dating a new guy I end up doing the Same shit! Acting the same way...-mostly because I'm shy &/or maybe I tense up become that "friend" because I'm shy OR I just know he's not right for me.
Who knows really...
I have told this to a few friends, from time to time, *sometimes I'm a broken record OR a rerun..but seriously, if I could take a tiny bit from Every guy I know, dated, befriended, etc., with I think I could possibly form my "Special someone".
Now is there a device out there to possibly do this?
That's the question! -come now...where's the answer?
so my guy...my "Special someone" will def. enjoy music..we WON'T have the same tastes, but will appreciate each others tastes...he'll love art as I do...but I want him to have his own opinion and will Compromise... is giving as giving as I am...-give with our hearts. He'll know when I'm feeling down, when I'm shy and know when I need him or just "me time".
he'll have a passion for travel, passion for exquisite tastes as do I... he must want to travel! No homebodies need to apply.
well I'm off to dreamland... Congrats Jeremy! I'm so proud of you. You have def. come a long way baby... :) I'm truly smiling -can't you see my award winning melt your heart smile?
anywho..Jeremy Litz and I became close friends. We use to hang out, talk all the time about whatever and I thought of him as a good friend. Someone I was able to open up to and just be me. I am 7 yrs older than him, the age difference didn't bother him. Has it bothered any guy I've dated? Um I found out recently that Sean was scared to date someone, me, that is 9yrs older than him. anywho..I'm getting sidetracked.
Well I decided to leave him a comment, wish him congratulations to him & Andrea, his high school sweetheart, now wife. I clicked to her page, luckily it wasn't marked private. I peaked at their wedding pictures and almost started to tear.. I was listening to Filo and Peri "Ordinary Moment w Fisher" in the background -this song set the mood for upcoming tears.
These tears are of joy and happiness for ALL my friends that have found their Special someone..their soul mate if you wish to call it that.
I often wonder.. will I meet my "special someone"? at the rate I'm going.. not anytime soon. I have put it in my head that I'll be married at 41. that's Clearly Not a goal, rather it's a feeling of mine. Something in my gut says so.
Does this mean I can run around and date random guys? mmm maybe. hah! nah, just means from now on I must be Very selective. In the past I Thought I was selective, but that was So not the case.
sidetracking again!! the point of this entry is to write about how happy I am for ALL my friends that have found their someone special.
and for those that have not quite yet... continue to live your life..walk, run, jog down that path...choose whichever path that crosses you at not just 1 or 2, but many forks that you will stumble upon and just GO!!!!!!!!!!!!
I meet guys from all over, I go out with them... and see if we're compatible and if not, then I TRY to learn more about what I Want and try to see it in the next guy. But every time I start dating a new guy I end up doing the Same shit! Acting the same way...-mostly because I'm shy &/or maybe I tense up become that "friend" because I'm shy OR I just know he's not right for me.
Who knows really...
I have told this to a few friends, from time to time, *sometimes I'm a broken record OR a rerun..but seriously, if I could take a tiny bit from Every guy I know, dated, befriended, etc., with I think I could possibly form my "Special someone".
Now is there a device out there to possibly do this?
That's the question! -come now...where's the answer?
so my guy...my "Special someone" will def. enjoy music..we WON'T have the same tastes, but will appreciate each others tastes...he'll love art as I do...but I want him to have his own opinion and will Compromise... is giving as giving as I am...-give with our hearts. He'll know when I'm feeling down, when I'm shy and know when I need him or just "me time".
he'll have a passion for travel, passion for exquisite tastes as do I... he must want to travel! No homebodies need to apply.
well I'm off to dreamland... Congrats Jeremy! I'm so proud of you. You have def. come a long way baby... :) I'm truly smiling -can't you see my award winning melt your heart smile?