Why do I suck?
I'm so depressed. I feel like I have nothing. I really miss having someone that would hold me at times like this. I got blown off my some stupid guy, but I really don't care that much, it just made me realize that I miss Rick. I miss him so much. My heart is empty. Days go by and I think of him. He is always on my mind. It upsets a lot. I want him back, but I don't have what it takes. He keeps pushing me away. When I'm not physically crying, I'm crying inside. Everyone tells me I'm not a failure, but I did fail. I failed at the best thing that ever happened to me. I'm realizing this now. I'm nothing without him. Absolutley nothing. Words can't explain my feelings for him.